Congrats on 2 weeks clean!!! I couldnt of said this any better. Great post!!! sara
very inspirational, just what i needed thank you, I'm glad you're starting to feel better!
Awesome job detailing "my life" before I got clean! We are all in the same boat here. Maybe a different pill or drug of choice but everyone just came here for help and support!
Way to go on 2 weeks!
Well done!!!
Yes, thank you for this. Your post helps put things into perspective. The redundancy of the never-ending lies & excuses, stressing about pills, where am I gonna get my next batch? It's sooo consuming. Not to mention the GUILT. Congrats on your 2 weeks! Well done <3
BIG HOORAY!!!!! 2 WEEKS CLEAN. I found your post very insightful, especially the list of questions. I'm not proud to say it but would truthfully have to answer "yes" to almost every question. It just reminds me how far I've come (31 days today!!!)
Praying for continued success and strength for all of us. Deb
congratulations! Yes yes and yes to most of those questions, ugh! Im on day 138, I was wrong and didn't count the days right. So, I am here to tell you, it gets sooo much better the longer you are off these pills. I wake up everyday with a smile, no kidding. I am just happy to have jeans with pockets on them that are empty now. No worrying about how many I have, what's left in the bottle, all that bs...
Very good post, thank you Mark :) Praying for your continued success!!
I too am just coming off valium and other benzos after using them for 6 months. I am free of any benzo for the past few weeks and darn glad. Your post is a reminder to those out in cyberland that you and your doctor should do everything possible to make you healthy prior to starting a new med. It won't be easy since many doctors find it easier to just prescribe meds plus they are pressured by all the free samples and talk from the pharmacy sales people who enter their office nearly everyday. Lets not kid ourselves here, the biggest drug pushers are not found on a dark and dreary urban corner, they are the sales reps who enter your doctor's office all the time. They are working on behalf of themselves and the giant companies they represent. Yes some medicines are very helpful but beware all the traps people get themselves into by reading all the posting in this forum thoroughly.
good for you Rich! congrats on 6 days. You are completely right. Here in Texas it is big business, and only growing. They say they want to shut these places down, but I don't see that happening. too much money in it. it is sad. Good luck to you, and god bless!
amazing how so many people including myself can related, great post
How true everything you wrote is. I could not have written it better and have almost done everything on the list so many times. How guilty I feel. I also consider myself a pretty honest guy, but the pills will make me lie to myself and others. I am checking into rehab Wednesday to get off my oxi addiction. I wish you well.
I think you said it for all of us. I was reading this "list" to my boyfriend who knows my addiction inside and out and the look on his face was priceless. Searching the house, skipping a meal so you don't ruin the high, "one more pill tonight and I won't take ANY tomorrow. Tomorrow I'll start, yep, tomorrow" then by noon "tomorrow" your already thinking about "ok there's always tomorrow" again. Ugh the cycle of addiction. Goof post.
Thanks for the encouragement on the two weeks. I used to think that two weeks was a short amount of time. In reality it is, but after so many years with a daily habit, two weeks seems quite a bit longer. I am honestly feel better, still a little trouble with the eating part because I skipped breakfast and lunch every single day, just for that "high." I'm getting there, one day at a time and each day bring a stronger sense that I can overcome this. I will admit that I am the *biggest* baby when it comes to pains/dentists/doctors needles, so if *I* can do it, anyone can -- you just need that motivation to do what is right for YOU.