Still Trying! Major Life Change

[ladyboop]

Well here I sit, Still fighting the battle of addiction!! Yesterdsy I made a Major Life change. Had a live in b/f who also took pills. He has it bad. Takes any thing he could get his hands on. He would even steal my RX's. Not just the pain pills. But anything else I had. I have no ins. So I have to pay full price for my meds. He knows that.
I decide that I could not do this with him living in my home. So I made him leave yesterday! Today I feel like a weight has been taken off me. I believe I did the right thing for my recovery!! Looking forward to starting over, I enjoyed having my house back today. I feel better and stronger. That was not easy to do. It had to be done, for my sake. I could no long live that way....
Thanks to all my friends who have been supporting me. I also hope this helps anyone who is in the same spot, and thinking of moving on. I say go for it. It is very freeing.. I feel that I am taking control of my life..

                   Lady

[GoingToMakeIt]

With the strength you have shown. I have no doubt that we will soon be reading of your recovery. Keep it up.

[ladyboop]

I thank you all for your support! I do feel stronger to a point. Now if I can only kick the pills to the curb, Like I did the B/F Then I would really be Rockin & Rolling...lol..lol
I not only posted this for myself but others that my be in the same boat. Wanting to be clean, But live with someone who does not. I have found that for me, I could not do it. The only REAL HOPE was to get rid of him..I wish him well, But I need my life back. If I still had medical Ins, I would check in some where. That is how bad I want it!! I do not have the kind of money treatment takes. So with all you here, God grace, And what ever else it takes. I know in my heart I will get there.. No matter how many times I have to try..

With all my heart I thank you all, for support, understanding,kindness, And most of all not beating me up, When I do mess up.. Guess I will have to pull extra hard on my boat straps!! lol..lol..
  Love you All,

        Lady

[Needhelp59]

God blessl you for your strength and courage.  There is nothing you can't do.  Be proud of yourself and if you need me I am here.  You rock, woman!!

[10356]

Congratulations on your daughter coming home I'm so happy for you and proud of your determination to get your life back It sounds like it is all working out for the best I wish you and your daughter well

[bladerunnerb]

Wow, you are so courageous!  This took a lot of nerve and was absolutely the right thing to do!  Now you can focus on recovery, and give the rest of us that are behind you more hope!  And hope is what we need...seeing all the folks in here that have made it through the first week even....that is great!  Good work, ladyboop!  Keep up the positive attitude and I know that you can get through this.  I just hope that I am as strong as you are!

[ladyboop]

To all of you, You are such a blessing to me. You know it seems like when you start doing the right thing. Things start to fall in place. My daughter has decided to move back home. She would have never done that with him here. (she did not like him) I am very happy I can be there for her. She knows about the pills. So she will ride my a$$ until I get off them. She is also a blessing.... I am happy to have her coming home. :-)))

Mike & worried, I hope both of you are feeling better!!!!

                Lady

[GoingToMakeIt]

Again, you are making very good choices to make your recovery a successful one. You are doing the right thing.

[desperate1111]

good luck lady. i know you've been struggling. i think everything will start falling into place for you from now on.

[Mikeinthesouth]

It is good that you are taking control of your life and doing what you find necessary to do that, Michael

[worried878]

Good for u..good move for ur recovery...i am home today...sinus headache..will give u a shout later

[ladyboop]

Thank to all for your support. No it was no easy at first. I came to realize my peace of mind and welfare had to come first. He was not a bad guy. Just not right for me...
I am not strong enough to be around people who use!! So I am just thankful my other friends do not use. I would hate to lose all my friends..lol..

Thanks again,

   Lady

[Florida_Guy737]

Awesome on your part and I'm sure wasn't easy.  Take care of yourself...

Guy

[dominosarah]

Good for you. Its time for YOU now.  A good "housecleaning" is always a positive thing.  I wish you the best.                         sara

[malenurse57]

Way to go girl !! Now you can concentrate on you. Good luck and God bless

[Victor322]

reminds me of a saying from the Dhammapada Verse 330 (a Buddhist text)
"It is better to live alone than have to live with a fool. Live alone like the King Elephant
in the forest".

Though the use of the word 'fool' might be a bit inaccurate, the point remains the same.
And as NA would say, "people, places and things" often must change for real change to begin (roughly quoted).

Congrats!
-Vic

[bandnmom]

Good for you!!! Its time to start doing what is best for you and your recovery. You are off to a great start!

[lady67]

I am happy for you ladyboop.  You are a very strong person and now you will be able to get on with your life.  I hope everything works great for you now   If you need anyone to talk to, I am here.

Susan

[enemy48]

I admire your courage LadyBoop.  Now you can breathe without gasping.

It's a good thing he was living with you, and not you with him.  Then what?