Hello...

[Bkitty2]

I am not able to access my old account at the moment. I have sent an email and am waiting for a response but I could not stand it any longer & I wanted to come here and tell you all that I am sorry. Please bear with me..I am a little choked up at the moment. This is hard. I want to say that all the prayers were heard ( Ill explain more later about that) and mean so much to me. I cant seem to find the right words to tell you how much that really means to me. I am going to explain in detail the events that preceded my suicide attempt here in the next few days. Maybe then you will understand kinda the frame of mind I was in & just what happened in general. I am so happy to be home! So for now,,Thank you! Each every one of you! I love you!

Bkitty
(((((hugs)))))

[Bkitty2]

Well I made it thru the day. I am enrolled in outpatient and will be going everyday from 9-2p. Honestly I am just going thru the motions right now. I am unsure how to feel anymore. Im humiliated but happy to be here? Does that make sense? Im having trouble identifying my feelings today. I felt like a robot..see the doctor, pee in a cup, have blood drawn,go here then there.  I didn't say very much today in group. I was checking everyone out and I sensed they were sizing me up to. The counselor introduced me and I told them all why I was there. Right now I am holed up in my room. My hubby went and got his kid who was at his moms.I wasn't ready to deal with her just yet. But it is what it is...I may go riding thru the woods in a little bit and just breathe in the fresh air. So I guess I am ok. I will be..that I do know. Thank you all again!!
Bkitty

[conhall]

I am so glad to see you posting and I Just want to say you are a very special person with alot of great qualities and a good heart please take care of yourself and just remember you have alot of people that care about you and that have said many prayers for you. God Bless you and hold you in his arms and give you peace . I pray that while you are taking the steps needed in your recovery that you don not feel overwhelmed just remember you can get thru this and you are very loved.

[akitagurl12]

i'm so happy you are ok.  Your life is so valuable and God made you for a very special reason.  

[Clarityrocks]

It is so wonderful to see you back! We haven't had much interaction on here, but I am so relieved you are ok, and headed toward a brighter future. We have all been praying hard around here for you to recover. You must be amazingly strong, even if it doesn't feel like it now.It sounds like it was a very close call.
I think that Andie said it best in her post, so I won't reiterate:) just so happy you are back.
Allison

[Overwhelmed10]

So very glad that you are back and surrounded by your fur babies and hubby!  Yay!! Take care of YOU sweetie!
Julie

[Bkitty2]

LOL! The first thing I heard the doctor saying that I could fully comphrend was him telling my hubby that "I meant business" with this attempt. That this was more than a cry for help. I think I tried to respond,,but not so easy with a tube in your throat and your hands tied to the bed. I was put back in twilight for a few more days. When I really came to my husband was wiping my face because I had snot running out my nose/mouth from me pulling my tube out! What a lovely picture. My poor husband. :/
I wont be doing that again!!!! Thank you all again for everything. Im headed out! I will catch up later! ((((hugs))))