I know I'm young, but I am addicted to tramadol. It's hard for me to try and stop cold turkey, even if I had planned on trying to halt everything and try ignoring my addiction. I've been doing everything I've read on-line what to do: sleep, eat healthy, drink tons of water, and exercise. Still, I still feel vulnerable.
I keep thinking it's because I have low self-esteem to help me with. I will admit, I also had a relapse a few months ago, but I started yesterday to quit all over again. But, I feel the weight of the addiction on me.
I want to completely stop this tramadol addiction. I am sick of always taking them and worrying about when the next prescription will come. Hell, I even count the calender dates to see if I'm on track for the day the prescription will be prepared. I want a life again, but, like I said, I have low self-esteem. I always think no one wants to help me, when I keep thinking I can't do this alone. I already know they want nothing to do with my addiction anymore, because I've been on the drugs for a year-and-a-half now.
I want this so badly; to be clean and be myself again. Ever since I've tried tramadol, my art skills have been deteriorating, and my imagination for writing fiction is draining. I want to have my creativity back, but mostly, I want to have my family and friends' trusts again.
Is there any way to get through the withdrawls. I'm willing to try anything that can help.