How bad will my withdrawal be after 2 weeks of heroin use. Ur not shooting up?

[Bananabella]

I started using 2 weeks ago when my 17 yr old niece died suddenly from a bad liver disease 4 hours before her transplant... destroyed us all. I do not shoot up and was using roughly 3 bags a day ... very low grade stuff in my area. Can anyone please help.. I could really use someone to talk to... I had not used for over a year. Very disappointed in myself and today is day one. I refuse to let this get any more out of hand.

[Bananabella]

This thread has been a savior and 10356 is the angel on my shoulder guiding me thru the dark.  9 years? Now that's something to respect and follow. I have few friends.. none of which know except 1 but we see each other infrequently... she is amazing but I am alone for the most part. Don't have the best of relationship with my boyfriend at the moment. I'm mourning and fighting a mental battle. Have to get thru this in a way that's best for me. I slept 7 hours... starving and thirsty so eating and staying hydrated. I'm still weak but nothing to complain about compare to what I have been thru in past. I have gone thru wd 3 times.. on my own at home . No one knew..
I only have used in total for 1 year. Long enough..
I'm at the end of this ... now just mental.
Thankfully I have no urge.. too scared.
Thank u for your support.. means everything.. can't express that enough .. love to all.

[10356]

I'm really glad you ate and are feeling ok with this wd also glad you have the Gaba as it is very helpful. Congrats on Day 3 you are just about there.. Therapy saved my life.. I would recommend it for anyone that can do it. Thank you for your very kind words on my loss.. I will look forward to hear how you are doing tomorrow I hope you sleep as well as you did last night..

[Bananabella]

That made me feel good .. thank you sincerely. This has actually been such an amazing support for me.. cheers to the girls and I thank them kindly as well. I will be ok.. I am going to look into a therapist.. deep troubles opening up me to anyone so I have always done everything on my own. I've seen dark days but I've seen more bright. I know who I am and I don't deny my flaws. Only I can fight them. Trying... soooo trying.  I'm almost there

[dominosarah]

We all understand the trouble opening up to someone as that makes us feel so vulnerable.  You should of seen 10356 and i when we first started this journey!  I am sure she was the stubborn one!!  lol  Little by little the barriers started coming down.  It is a slow process and that is a good thing as it gives you time to take it all in, deal with it and find a place for it.  That was almost 9 yrs ago and here we still are.  All of us on this thread have worked very hard to get where we are at today but we never forget where we came from.  We are about recovery and hope~

[dominosarah]

I just wanted to add my support.  Try not to beat yourself up too bad.  Use your energy to change things up in a positive way.  Look into some counseling.  They can really help you deal with your grief and other demons we carry around.  Listen to the girls on your thread.  They wont steer you wrong.  I am glad you are here.  You are worth the fight~

[10356]

no I live in Ca.. You really should try to add a lil solid food It will give you energy. our at least a Protein drink. our maybe a scrambled egg and toast ? My Niece Sam died with her Guy her dog and 2 cats. it was very sad..

[Bananabella]

I am so sorry that is sad. Any situation such as that is tragic and hit in places we don't even know exist. All we can do is try to move on in a positive manner benefiting ourselves and everyone around us ...just as those lost loved ones would of course want us to do. We all have a demon or 2 but they never have to win.. that's what I hold on to everyday. That's all we got.  my sympathies for your loss. I had some chicken and pasta and a 2 gabapentin. I feel ok right now but I def felt it when the two gabapentin I took early this morn wearing off. I'm prescribed 6 a day. It's still dealable.. just uncomfortable when it did wear off. So I'm going into day 3 as of now.

[Bananabella]

I am so sorry that is sad. Any situation such as that is tragic and hit in places we don't even know exist. All we can do is try to move on in a positive manner benefiting ourselves and everyone around us ...just as those lost loved ones would of course want us to do. We all have a demon or 2 but they never have to win.. that's what I hold on to everyday. That's all we got.  my sympathies for your loss. I had some chicken and pasta and a 2 gabapentin. I feel ok right now but I def felt it when the two gabapentin I took early this morn wearing off. I'm prescribed 6 a day. It's still dealable.. just uncomfortable when it did wear off. So I'm going into day 3 as of now.

[Bananabella]

I am drinking milk... I have lost a lot of weight recently. I'm small to begin with. I maybe weigh 95lbs. I understand privacy in such situations as these but would u mind me asking if u live in Syracuse by chance? A good friend of mines relative ... a little girl and boy as well as their mother also perished in a house fire.