How did you finally decide to quit??

[Spike2654]

ugh, as I sit here trying to get through my first 24 or so hours, knowing the worst is yet to come. I'm trying everything to think of why this is a good thing when my body and mind (GAWD, IT WON'T SHUT UP!!) tells me that I'm such a better person when I'm on my pain pills. Just was curious what your source/determination to finally be done was...

[shinieshoes]

I decided to quit when I couldn't stand to see the disappointment on my husbands face anymore. He would tell me how he wanted a future with me and he was scared that that would not happen if I kept taking the pills.  I was so exhausted from the constant worrying about running out early. Trying to divvy my pills to last then taking double because I knew I was going to run out anyways. As soon as the pills went down my throat the terror of withdrawals would kick in and I would be back to counting.

[dominosarah]

I was an inch away from death~

[motye51]

You need to WANT to quit.  Are you tired of spending every last damn dime you have on pills?  Are you tired of being numb to everything around you?  I was!  The first few days are the worst but they DO get better (I can't believe I finally get to say that!)  I only have 23 days w/ NOTHING in my system, but it's better already!

[10356]

Mine was a OD that forced me into seeing my Dr. everyday for weeks and to see a psychiatrist. Dealing with my past had helped me to make the decision to quit. I found I wanted to live.. lesa

[msdelight]

Trust me on this, you are not the wonderful productive person you think you are when you are on pills.  What happens is you are numb,  so when normal stuff happens, arguments, issues, tons of work, you just push through feeling no particular motivation to fight back, resolve issues or worry that you are working yourself to death. You just take another pill, go back into your own private Idaho and keep moving. Looking back, I did absolutely nothing on pills except function doing the bare minimum I had to. My house is neglected, my winter/summer clothes are all mixed up, I did nothing to resolve the many issues my mom is having, I didn't fix the car or even wash it when I should have, missed paying bills, UGH the list is endless!  I had to give it up because it was becoming ridiculous. The money, the begging and pleading, the chasing , the counting, the running out . Im sure my dealer was sick of me. Supply was low, I had nothing for 8 days, SO off I went on this amazing journey. IT WAS THE BEST DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE!  You too right?  Shut that addict brain up and look back over your addiction clearly. The better person is the one that's been locked up inside of you and chained to opiates.  Good wishes, prayers and congrats to you! Keep going friend!

[Whollymolythathurt]

When i started to need pills for simple (mowing lawn, planting tree, shoveling snow) tasks.  Not to mention planning vacations around just getting RX.

The first 3-4 days are the worst.  Try to convince yourself you have the flu...kinda helped me.  Drink lots of fluids, eat bananas...just peeling the damn thing will seem like a huge accomplishment.

You'll get through it.  They physicals are gone for me but the mental part starts.  This is where the rubber meets the road for me.