Something about this day.......

[LeaAnn807]

Today, I had one of "those" days.  It was a situation....not a problem.  I didn't use drugs, so life is still great, and the problem seems minimal when I don't have to factor drug withdrawal into it.  I didn't think I could handle a day like today without "something" to help!  But I DID IT!  I am stronger than I thought without drugs and the nasty withdrawal that I have been through MORE TIMES than I'd like to admit.  

I am still pretty new in all of this.  Sometimes my emotions feel raw...STILL.  So....why, when I have a day like today, where everything went wrong and people are truly crazy and treat me badly, do I not want drugs, and when things are going well, I would LOVE to take something?  I don't get it!   I have NO drug cravings.  No desire to go back down that road.  I have attended 12 step meetings this time, but that is the ONLY thing I have done differently.  I guess the power of support and change and some real aftercare is going to help afterall....I'll be darn!  

As I was told in a meeting this week.....I guess I can just "suit up and show up" until I figure it all out!!!

Blessings everyone and good luck in your battle!!!

TH

[vicki595]

Tram~~ LOL  That's funny!  For some reason that song just popped in to my head!!
Freaky...

Hope it's a better day today...Some days are diamonds;some days are stones. That's how life is !!  UGHH!!  

My nickname is......Vicki.  LOL    I'm just not creative enough to have thought of anything else!(At the time...)

V.  xo

[LeaAnn807]

Ha, Vicki, my nickname growing up was Annie.....that's really weird!  Really!  Are you a family member in disguise??? : )

DeeJaye, you'll get there.  Strange thing is that today I could have a day where I crave.  Yesterday..no.  Tomorrow..maybe...Today...not yet!!!!!!!!  Who knows?  It's so strange.  I have usually given up and taken something by now, so I'm feeling my way through this!  

KS, thank you very much.  You will get there too, it just takes time and not taking all of this out of context.  It's hard but do-able!  I had the WD built up to be so horrible that I just thought I could NOT get through it.  Now, it seems like a long time ago and like it didn't last very long.  At the time....it seemed that 5 minutes took 3 days to go by!  

[vicki595]

Tram~~  Sorry about your day.  Just remember:  "The sun will come out tomorrow...bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow...they'll be sun..."  LA LA LA...

That came to mind...LOL          (God...I'm tired!)

Glad for "no cravings"...

Love ya~ Vicki

[DeeJaye45]

Wow! is all I can say! I hope I can get to the point where I don't want drugs or alcohol when I've had one of those days or one of these days. I don't even drink & I'm craving a drink at this point. I've been off drugs 13 days...But it's 13 days longer than I could be without the support I have...

[acalicutie]

Hi there - I've been reading your posts for a couple of weeks now, and just want to say you are quite an inspiration to me.  I will be very happy to get to the point you're at.

KS