Very scared....

[Mozer2828]

I've been here before almost a year to the date.... Was taking norco 7.5 at least 10 a day weined myself off that then started percs I went from one to another never stopped I only take 2-3 percs a day I'm scared to death of the withdraw been there before swore it wouldn't happen again and well here I am AGAIN just need some guidance support to cry idk anymore I'm just so lost lime out of control with life doesn't help I suffer from bipolar OCD anxiety disorder depression I am a MESS sorry for rambling I'd bless everyone

[gnarly_1]

Hi....well you seam to have a plan  now is the time for preparation...pick up a case of gatoraid you will need to force the fluids pick up some ez meals your probably not going to want to cook...rent a bunch of movies it will keep you bizzy for the long nights with no sleep....then prepare yourself...a positive attitude is the best thing you can bring to the table  it will make the difference between being uncomfortable and suffering  suffering is a choice....this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental so be ready to fight it out on both fronts  I have said this a million times but ''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile''.....this to shall pass  keep posting for support where all here for you...........................Gnarly

[BellaJake]

Mozer...We are here for you! Some great advice above! I can't wait to read your next post and that you have hit Day 1 free of Narcotics. I think at that amount it won't be so bad.

I do understand having other issues along with the addiction ( I have OCD and anxiety and some depression). That's why it's so important your therapist are involved in this. But it sounds like you have those relatively controlled right now....still....keep in touch with your doctors! Mine have been a life-line.

I think knowing about withdrawals makes it worse to start. It's scary. I didn't know what I was getting into and i'm almost glad. But once I was in the middle of it..well...I was on my way. And you will be too. So take that first step and keep in touch!!!

[jifmoc]

Mozer- a little something to think about: as addicts, we always procrastinate. It's always comfortable to "start tomorrow." My suggestion is to get rid of them and begin.

I know how scared you are, but I promise you will feel empowered once you begin.

[Mozer2828]

I'm jumping this weekend so I have some down time before work again that was my plan I have 6 pills till Friday so in a way yes I have no more to get that's it.... I'm done. Then my work begins

[jifmoc]

Mozer- did you get rid of all your pills? You saw how tapering worked for you. A huge measure of success is having zero access to pills.

2 to 3 percs a day? Detox won't be too bad. There is no tapering from that. Sorry, we ALL had to go thru wd. There is no escape from that. None of us are any stronger than you. We just got too sick and tired to live that sh!tty existence one more minute.

How many pills do you have left? Are you willing to get rid of them and start? If you do it right, you will never have to be where you are again!!

[Mozer2828]

Thank you for your support I do have the mental health issues under semi control I see doc once month like clock work Ima lifer in that but these pills gotta go I just gotta grow some b.... I agree it's the fear totally for
I know how my mind works

[VICourageous]

Swamkme..That was some nice wonderful information..Right On!!

[swankme]

I had a doctor tell me once that the fear of withdrawal is worse for an addict. It's the fear that keeps me from getting better. I thought about it the last time I went through it.  I feared it so much I would do so much to try to prevent it and when it came and I was in the middle of the withdrawal I thought about it, the fear is a bit worse than going through it in a way.  Our brains love to trick us.  I wish I could help u more but I am still going through it too.  I wish I would have been like U though and tried to stop at 2-3 a day.  I admire you keep trying please.

[VICourageous]

Hi.
I would like to Welcome you back too.

Lesa hit most of it here. Stick around for more Support. You have been here for awhile and do know what we suggest during and after detox. Maybe YOU can get yourself down a bit more and jump. I am sure you know that you have to let your Brain/Body adjust to each drop. Also, all those health issues you have, you might not have them that bad. Drugs seem to bring out the worst. Getting Support in all or any areas of our life is a Big One. YOU know WE can NOT do this alone. I sure wish you the best and plz do not be afraid of the w/ds. They might not be so bad at a lower dose but I would still try to taper way down. Be Safe!
Bless

[10356]

Hi Mozer Welcome back Sorry it is under thee circumstances thou.. I would be more scared of continuing in Active addiction then I would be of going thru the wd. One can kill you one sets us free.. Do you have a reg Dr. for your anxiety ocd and bipolar disorders ? Does he/she know you struggle with addiction ? Are you wanting to quit our are you quitting now?  You stopped once before so you know what you are in for, getting off the percs and getting into a regimented program to deal with your other disorders would be a great benefit in making your life more joyful. Active Addiction suc ks any joy we can get out of out life this is for sure.. That out of control feeling is the worst but you can get some control back you just are going to have to work for it. Lean on us for support if you need to vent our cry someone will be here. You can do this You can get your life back Right now it may not seem like it but all it takes it making a decision and sticking with it thru hell our high water. I wish you well, lesa