Hydrocodone addict

[ImOverThisBS]

Hello I've been reading the posts for a few weeks in preparation. And I'm now only 24hours off them as I write this. At this point I feel a little restless but I'm confident I can do this with the help of my love. I was reading the posts and crying this morning because I kept hearing my all to private and debilitating secret being told over and over. It's really comforting to know that I'm not alone. So the main difference in my story from the others I've read is the number I take every day. Up until about a year ago I was pretty steady at 15-20 a day. I'm at the point now that I'm not really sure how many but I'm sure I took 30 a day at least on average probably up to 45 or more even. I stopped keeping track, probably because I didn't want to know how badly I was/am treating my body. So I guess I don't have any questions really, just wanted to share and hopefully help someone. Please comment, it would really help me get through this.

I'll take all the help I can get :)

Thanks,
Sean

[ImOverThisBS]

I'm not really sure what's going on.... I'm coming up on 48 hours soon and I feel better than yesterday. I'm assuming it's just the Epsom salts and tyrosine.... Lilbock said her bad WD's didn't start till 48-72 hours so guess I'm expecting to start feeling really crappy soon. Does that make sense or am I just thinking too much haha

[Spike2654]

How ya holdin' up boss? everything still going ok? At work but was thinking about you and wanted to give a quick shout out! The Thomas recipe literally saved me, it was the difference between getting out of bed and still working and maintaining "life"...it wasn't pretty but it very much helped with the wd symptoms, good for you!
I was very emotional...shoot, who am I kidding, I'm still emotional, HA, I know it's from being 'numb' to emotion for so long it seems like that racket is sure firing on alllll cylinders now! haha, you're right tough, purge all of that crap out, it's good to have feelings!! and it's OKAY if we don't feel great or perfect (hence why I chased pills...to 'feel' good and perfect instead of just dealing with life!), life is about ups and downs and enjoying it no matter where we are at.
Check in when you can, hugs to your tough lady at your side too!! :)

[ImOverThisBS]

Other than the ant-acid I'm following the Thomas recipe

[ImOverThisBS]

Thank you soooo much spike ;) I've been preparing for the worst like you said and so far so good. I'm super emotional too, crying as I read all these complete strangers soothing words. It's so wonderful to hear from and talk to people who have been through it. I can't thank you all enough,

Also I'm finding this forum to be a real help, you know emotional cleansing/purge

[ImOverThisBS]

Thanks ;)

[Spike2654]

Keep rocking it out Sean!! Yes, the nights are the worst, just the dark, quiet, not much going on time that we should be sleeping through but can't. I will say that if you really psych yourself out thinking the symptoms are coming and are going to be so bad, they actually don't seem as bad. Y'know..that whole hope for the best but expect the worse type deal. I found out that the worry and anticipation of what's to come was way worse than the actual symptoms.
Epsom salts definitely make a difference. Are you taking other supplements/OTC stuff other than the antacid?
No matter how rough or not rough your wd period is, you know you can't go back! live free and hug that girl for sticking by you through this!