Hydrocodone addict

[ImOverThisBS]

Hello I've been reading the posts for a few weeks in preparation. And I'm now only 24hours off them as I write this. At this point I feel a little restless but I'm confident I can do this with the help of my love. I was reading the posts and crying this morning because I kept hearing my all to private and debilitating secret being told over and over. It's really comforting to know that I'm not alone. So the main difference in my story from the others I've read is the number I take every day. Up until about a year ago I was pretty steady at 15-20 a day. I'm at the point now that I'm not really sure how many but I'm sure I took 30 a day at least on average probably up to 45 or more even. I stopped keeping track, probably because I didn't want to know how badly I was/am treating my body. So I guess I don't have any questions really, just wanted to share and hopefully help someone. Please comment, it would really help me get through this.

I'll take all the help I can get :)

Thanks,
Sean

[ariley13]

Hi there! (And hi to your wonderful, supportive girlfriend!) I just wanted to add my support. Congratulations on making it to your 2nd day. (Right?) Sounds like you are really getting into the thick of things. Hang on!! No going back now. I know that every hour feels like an eternity right now, but in retrospect this will be over in the blink of an eye. Have you tried a hot bath with epsom salts in it? I would highly recommend it. It will help with the RLS, aches and pains, restlessness, anxiety, and even with sleep. Take them often. It's also a good 'time out' if you get overwhelmed and feel like you can't take anymore. Sounds silly, but it does work. Keep on pushing through this and you will be out the other side in no time! You are doing great!! Please keep reading and posting on here as much as you can. We are here for you cheering you along!! Take care of yourself and try to keep your head up.

[ImOverThisBS]

Thank you all for your support and encouraging words. Sorry I'm not gonna write much I'm super achy and can't sleep :( just reading your beatuiful words and crying. Thank you for your help. My girlfriend is right here with me :)

[Lilbock]

I know what your going thru there were some days i know i use to take around 30 sometimes 60 pills only lasted me a day and a half.!! The first 24 hrs of my wd's wernt that bad it was when it hit 48-72. Im glad you wanna get clean!!!! Its a bad habit taking that many pills is not healthy for anyone myself included!!! Please just know its gonna get worse but u have to want it!! I detoxed on my own on the couch i was lucky enough my boyfriend was with me. I remember i was in ur shoes a little over a month ago.... I pray u make it thru this!!!  Just make sure u keep up w the fluids!!!! U can do it!!!!

[Yesidid]

You Rock Sean! You may not fell very good for a little while but God has a purpose for you. Lots of people have died taking less than 45 pills.  You can do this!

[Real180]

Hey Sean -

Congrats on taking the first step in getting your life and freedom back!!

You came to the right place -- Plenty of people will be by to support you and give you incredible advise over the course of your detox. Like Spike said keep this forum very close and continue to post here as everyone here has gone through this so we can all relate to your thoughts and feelings over the next few days.. Check out the Thomas Recipe below.. It will help you out with the physicals... Stay strong and focused!!!

[Spike2654]

Way to go Sean!!!! I know this site is amazing, eh? I'm glad that you took some time to read and prepare yourself...so, 45 or more per day of what?  hydrocodone? as you've read and found out, that is a huge dose. any of it prescribed? that's a heckuva expensive habit!! You have the help of your love, that's FANTASTIC, I hope that person can be with you day in and out the next week or two, as with that high of a dose, you will have some pretty crazy wd's. In your "preparation" time, did you get the supplements/vitamins recommended? It's in the Thomas Recipe link, I strongly recommend them, lots and lots of water/Gatorade!
Stay close to this site and post often, read, cry, vent, it's very therapeutic! How long have you been on them?