I FEEL SO GUILTY

[stilltrying1965]

We have just had the most horrendous bout of sickness so far.Kim is lying upside down shes got her legs in the air as if shes cycling a bike and waving her arms about Ifeel so guilty she is so hot she is burning Im terrified she starts fitting coz thats happened to me a few times when iv been withdrawing before.What do I do if it happens to her i dont know if i could handle that.I know i could make it better with 1 phone call but im not going to do it oh i wished she would just sleep for a while so she could get some peace.I feel like screaming i want to punch the doors down the walls down anything but most of all id love to punch my EX dealer but id probably get the jail. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh

[10356]

Hey stilltrying.. is kim communicating with you..

[stilltrying1965]

im never turning back now and ill never turn my back on this site either. When we are better we will be here helping other people and telling them our story so if we can help other people do it like yous have helped us we have to yous saved our lives.And i still have the phone off my friend and im going to change my number too

[gizzy32]

You are going to be posting a week clean before you know it and you better stick around and keep keep us updated on your new life after. You got all the support in the world here, but i wish it helped with w/d's:( Remember to keep that phone off, you can't turn back now my friend

[stilltrying1965]

we got a stock of power drinks today along with tonic water for the quinine and bananas for the potassium and a whole lot of vitamins and other fruits its about the only thing we can stomach shes calming down a bit now i just made her keep the towels on her she didnt like it but i dont care i had to she was so hot and shes lying beside the fan now but sweating badly still talking no sense but not thrashing about so much i dont really care how i feel just now i just have to keep her temp down at the moment this just has made me more determind to kick this demons *** clean out of our lives forever. thanks michelle. thanks everyone for helping me out there.

[avisg]

madtram brings up a good idea with the powerade if possable to keep her electrolytes balanced.

[stilltrying1965]

none of us drink alcohol its only heroin we are withdrawing from but im keeping a eye on her all the time i wont leave her for a minute alone