I can't do this

[Avalancheblanche]

This is my worst night. ( I cant spell, sorry.)  I want to know why this happens to us.  Why?  Someone needs to tell me that it is going to be ok.  I feel like I can't do this.  

[LQQKThrewU]

Awww hugs to you hun, hang in there. Can't type much right now as I am in day 2 and it feels like I have a band around my chest and leg pains etc etc. I feel HORRIBLE!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! We can do this we HAVE to, we cannot live being ruled by our disease. You made it this far. Hugs, I will cont to read the boards and check on you and keep you in my thoughts

[Avalancheblanche]

My mom , who is so very precious to me, has bone cancer.  She has been fighting this for 3 years. She just told me today that the cancer is spreading.  She is leaving for texas for 2 months on Fri.  Her Oncologist is not going to treat her until she gets back.  I can't lose her too.  I have not yet gotten over losing my sister. I just feel helpless

[Avalancheblanche]

How amazing that you are going thru this and still being so caring.  Thank you.  I hope you will feel better.  Hugs to you too.

[lostsoul2]

I don't know your story, but if you are referring to the drug usage as a healthy place, rethink that.  It might be happy.  It might feel alive.  But even if you are taking whatever for real pain, it's never healthy.  Damage is done to your body.  If you are in real pain and really NEED the drug for relief, then I do sympathize.  But if you are missing it because of w/d and w/d alone and you don't need it, keep going.  3 days ago I ran out of my DOC and thought Iwould rather die than face a day without it.  I'm 3 days clean and really don't feel that bad.  I was taking between 100-150 mg a day of hydro.  I don't know if that is any consolation, but I did it and I hope to God I never look back.  We are all here for you and we all have had those hopeless feelings.  They will pass.  

[mtrying]

You have already done so great with this!!  Six days!!!!!   Think back six months, did you think you could go six days without the pills?  
It sucks feeling helpless, especially when a loved one is sick and we can't change it.  The best thing you can do for yourself, and your family right now is try to hang in there.  I know you can do it.

[elefrog42]

I just wrote back to your PM, but YOU totally can do this!  Don't go back now...I made that mistake too many times...you know, once you forget about how crappy the withdrawal was, you think "well, I could take just one more"  BUT DON'T!!!!  Please take it from me, I did that over and over again and it was terrible.  I'm so sorry to hear about your mom.  But you have to stay strong!  If it's any consolation, my (very young) grandmother has lung cancer thats metastasized, and the doctors told her 7 years ago she wouldn't make it one year.  She still around and still fighting the disease (and living at home AND taking care of herself, so there!).  So don't focus on the bad things that might happen.....I will be sending you and your mother good vibes and hugs.