I can't do this

[Avalancheblanche]

This is my worst night. ( I cant spell, sorry.)  I want to know why this happens to us.  Why?  Someone needs to tell me that it is going to be ok.  I feel like I can't do this.  

[Avalancheblanche]

My mom , who is so very precious to me, has bone cancer.  She has been fighting this for 3 years. She just told me today that the cancer is spreading.  She is leaving for texas for 2 months on Fri.  Her Oncologist is not going to treat her until she gets back.  I can't lose her too.  I have not yet gotten over losing my sister. I just feel helpless

[LQQKThrewU]

Awww hugs to you hun, hang in there. Can't type much right now as I am in day 2 and it feels like I have a band around my chest and leg pains etc etc. I feel HORRIBLE!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! We can do this we HAVE to, we cannot live being ruled by our disease. You made it this far. Hugs, I will cont to read the boards and check on you and keep you in my thoughts

[GoingToMakeIt]

I know it is so hard. We have been hiding from all sorts of things, and suddenly our emotions jump into overdrive. Everything rushes back.
  This will settle down soon. Take a hot bath. Drink some chamomile tea.

God bless you hun.

[GoingToMakeIt]

I just answered your PM
You can make it through this. It will be OK.
What is making this so bad tonight?

[enemy48]

Wait a minute...........If I can do this, then so can you.

Remember our conversation this afternoon?  You're way ahead than so many for only being caught up in this for 18 months.

I've been messed up way longer than you.

I took way more, and much more than you.

I'm just past the aweful w/d's so it's easier to say, but definetly not easy to do.  Every minute right now can be different.......then it will move on to every few hours.......then every day....week.......2,,,,,,,etc.

Another HUG!

[Avalancheblanche]

It's all the pain from the past 2 years coming back. I don't want to be negative, but it hurts so much.  I don't want to feel this.  I don't want this.  I want everything in it's neat little good happy alive, healthy place