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I failed..
After over 2 months.. over 60 days... I failed.. I hurt.. I'm sad about it.. Nothing to say.. I guess I am doomed
I just wanted to offer my support. I have relapsed many times and I know how hard it is to come back and post it.
When you are ready to quit please come back and let us help you.
It sounds to me like you have a lot of people on this forum that really care about you.
This battle isn't easy and nobody will judge you for relapsing.
You sound very sad and I wish you would let us help you.
When you are ready to quit please come back and let us help you.
It sounds to me like you have a lot of people on this forum that really care about you.
This battle isn't easy and nobody will judge you for relapsing.
You sound very sad and I wish you would let us help you.
I can almost SEE your internal struggle in your words.
On one hand, you're admitting that perhaps you DIDN'T have this all figured out, that maybe there was some wisdom in the advice you got here before. You also admit to not taking it as seriously in that you thought you were "different" from other addicts. You kind of admit that you KNOW you cannot control this...the pills control YOU, not the other way around.
But, in the next breath, you're kind of almost taking back your prior statements by saying you just wanted to stop in and say "hi" and give everyone kudos (which is really nice). You also say you'll come back when the weather changes. It's like you're right there but maybe scared to move forward? I think maybe you KNOW that if you indeed start taking this seriously, you will have to put your mind to it and REALLY make some changes. THAT is enough to scare anyone, and you're not alone there. We hear that all the time. It's NOT easy to let go, it's scary!
CIK made some amazing points (as usual). I think you would benefit from reading hers (and the other) replies you've gotten here today, as well as going back and reading some of your older posts. Hopefully you will recognize like we have that your mindset is beginning to change. It's a start. But, you have to keep going. You have to make the commitment to REALLY make some big changes, or you'll stay shackled to these pills for another decade.
As always, I wish you the very best and hope you stick around and get started on your recovery again. You did 60 days, which is amazing, but like CIK said, after 20 years, it's going to take a lot more than 2 months to start changing your mindset and all of the habits you've developed.
On one hand, you're admitting that perhaps you DIDN'T have this all figured out, that maybe there was some wisdom in the advice you got here before. You also admit to not taking it as seriously in that you thought you were "different" from other addicts. You kind of admit that you KNOW you cannot control this...the pills control YOU, not the other way around.
But, in the next breath, you're kind of almost taking back your prior statements by saying you just wanted to stop in and say "hi" and give everyone kudos (which is really nice). You also say you'll come back when the weather changes. It's like you're right there but maybe scared to move forward? I think maybe you KNOW that if you indeed start taking this seriously, you will have to put your mind to it and REALLY make some changes. THAT is enough to scare anyone, and you're not alone there. We hear that all the time. It's NOT easy to let go, it's scary!
CIK made some amazing points (as usual). I think you would benefit from reading hers (and the other) replies you've gotten here today, as well as going back and reading some of your older posts. Hopefully you will recognize like we have that your mindset is beginning to change. It's a start. But, you have to keep going. You have to make the commitment to REALLY make some big changes, or you'll stay shackled to these pills for another decade.
As always, I wish you the very best and hope you stick around and get started on your recovery again. You did 60 days, which is amazing, but like CIK said, after 20 years, it's going to take a lot more than 2 months to start changing your mindset and all of the habits you've developed.
I know you relapsed and are using but STILL....it sounds to me like you are making some progress and figuring out some things .Please come back and please keep trying We can't take just one or a little.. If you now know that then you are making progress
Hey suzz! You are not doomed! You came back here and we are here to support you honey! You know you can do this you have done it before! I agree with clean in Kansas you should go back through your posts and read what you were writing and the support you gave to others. You are amazing suzz! We are here for you and we care about you!
Suzz- please don't go! We are all here for you. Soo many of us have relapsed. Sh!t, I've relapsed the first week I got clean. I picked myself up and went back to day one. Never looked back. Now, I am 116 days clean! My heart hurts for you though. I hate seeing my friends relapse, it really does make me sad:( stay here. We will help you!
Well it is always good to see someone come back...but it doesn't sound like you want to attempt getting clean again yet... if I read your comments correctly? You are NEVER doomed....recovery is ALWAYS possible as long as you're breathing.
I knew you were struggling at 60 days....but I sure wish you'd go back and read all your threads. All the suggestions and support....you can't put opiates into your body for over 20 yrs and expect to feel great after 60 days.....it takes longer than that to restore our brains and bodies after taking narcotics that many years.
You said you'd come back when the weather was better and your pain wasn't so bad. What does that have to do with wanting to get clean again?
We all rallied around you before....and a relapse doesn't change that.
If you aren't ready, you aren't ready....doesn't matter what the weather is.
Of course, we'd all like to see you make a new commitment to get clean again....but the desire must come from within you~
I knew you were struggling at 60 days....but I sure wish you'd go back and read all your threads. All the suggestions and support....you can't put opiates into your body for over 20 yrs and expect to feel great after 60 days.....it takes longer than that to restore our brains and bodies after taking narcotics that many years.
You said you'd come back when the weather was better and your pain wasn't so bad. What does that have to do with wanting to get clean again?
We all rallied around you before....and a relapse doesn't change that.
If you aren't ready, you aren't ready....doesn't matter what the weather is.
Of course, we'd all like to see you make a new commitment to get clean again....but the desire must come from within you~
Good to see you posting.. I think IBK said it best! Time to make some changes and set yourself up for success.
Please don't leave Suzz, I don't understand what you're doing. Stay and get support to continue .
Why would you leave? Now, is when you need support the most! I hope you will reconsider...
I guess I just wanted to say hi.. I guess I've missed you all.. I guess I'll come back when the weather is better and the pain isn't so bad.. There is nothing more to say I guess.. just that I am very proud of you all... You guys take care huh..
You have been at this 4 years, on this site anyway, and it is really time for you to realize that you CANNOT do this alone. Things have got to change and you need to do things differently.
I've been thinking of you all a lot lately too.. its good to see you guys still here.. I am so proud of you all..
I guess.. well.. I guess I gave up.. I felt miserable too long.. I don't know.. I really thought I was different than everyone.. I could just quit and never have to worry about it again.. I guess I thought that anything was better than the way I felt. So, one day I just took a little piece.. it didn't do anything to me at all.. so I took a little more.. I guess I just wanted to see if I would feel better by taking just a little bit.. I'm not taking a whole pill a day or anything.. But, I did realize I am the same as everyone.. no different.. I am so proud of all of you who never gave in.. never gave up...
I thank you all from the bottom of my heart... All you helped me... So much.. I am so proud of you all... You are to be admired... The winners.. I got sick... not from not taking the norcos.. but, just sick with colitis.. H1N1.. there is no excuse for me.. I went through a lot while not taking the pills.. like the devil constantly tempting me.. I thought I was different than you all.. I thought I don't need the pills.. and I will never take even a piece ever again.. I had no worries about that.. that was wrong of me.. I should have kept coming here..Well.. it doesn't matter.. but, I wanted to say to all of you who quit and keep keeping on... You are admired..
I'm truly sorry, SuzzQ. You are certainly not doomed. Please don't give up. Most all of us have relapsed. I did many times. You can do this!
What happened? We can help you through this!
What happened? We can help you through this!
You didn't fail! You are doing the best you can. I know some might have different views on that but what's most important is that no matter what you keep getting back up on the horse and arevnot giving up!! Just keep fighting the battle girl, you can do it and just don't ever give up! You will eventually find what works best for you! Congratulations for keep trying and keep pushing forward! 60 days is something to be very proud of! :)
You are not doomed. Don't EVER give up hope. What do you think you need to add or do differently this time?
Aww suzz! I'm sorry. I'm not going to lie- I've been thinking of you a lot lately. I haven't seen you on here for awhile. What happened?
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