I just can't see any point in living

[HelpMe305]

I want to die

[wishfulthinking57]

Helpme, extremely thankful you posted before you did anything.  Right off the bat I can tell you that painkillers effect your brain very much (if you didn't already know that).  Over using can create a heavy imbalance and lead to these types of feelings.  I was in the same position as you only you're already much stronger then I was: you reached out for help while I cowered in my room.  I usually tell people to get these 2 supplements while feeling like this because they help the brain to start function normally and kick start everything back into gear....vitamin b-6 and L-tyrosine.  

As far as how you're feeling, I can tell you this much...you may have a million reasons to not be here anymore, but there are a million and 1 reasons why you should be here.  Hold your head up and be confident, this is something you can beat and one day soon you'll be able to look back and use this as a learning experience, and be in the position to help someone else who may be going through this.

[quitinoxys]

It really pains me to hear what you are going through at such a young age. You seem to want to get your life back so just take the next step and do it. We are all here to help guide you through it if you accept our advice. You have been given some very good advice at that. Gnarly told you his story and how he got through it with the help of God and Jesus and that will take you a long way. When you start to feel all is hopeless sit down and try to pray you'll be amazed on how quickly you will get an answer. I will pray for you and ask God to answer your prayers swiftly. God Bless---Rick

[10356]

A good place to start would be AA our NA they are free and we here will support you as much as we can. I believe the drugs keeping you in a dark place this is what they do, at first there fun then they turn on you. You have been thru rough patches before and you will get thru this one. Your life will be so much better without drugs clouding your mind and emotion..  sounds to me like you are already coming to terms that you need to stop our you would not be posting here. sometimes it takes a lil time reading talking to get the courage up. I had to work out my past in order to get clean as I used the drugs a a sort of right.. This happened to me so I can do what the freak I want. That was the victim in me. she no longer has control of my life and it feels good, I will be saying a prayer for you..

[lulu747]

I don't want to tell you what to do-this is my opinion and only that-but the pills are messing with your brain function which affects your emotions which affects your perception of reality.  There have been many suggestions of places you can call to ask for help-just pick up the phone and do it.  It's the first step in getting the life that you always wanted.  Trust me-it's worth it.  Big hugs.

[HelpMe305]

You all seem like such string people to have overcome such difficult things in life, I too have had my fair share of rough patches. Although things were rough they did get better, difference between then and now, I'm on pills. I'm in such a dark place in life, I wish I had someone to help me through this and encourage me, all my friends have their own lives n don't do any drugs. They don't understand, I need help, more help than I can admit but I don't know where to turn. I know that in order to be clean, I have to want it, I want it sometimes but honestly when it comes down to it I cave in.  I was supposed to start school in jan but haven't chosen my classes because of this. I want to go away to happy place where I can be loved and appreciated. I need to rebuild myself and learn to live normally, I just don't know anymore

[lulu747]

there is help out there for you if you need it-whether it be addictions counselling, a behavioural therapist etc.  You just need to see what your options are.  I lost my life as I knew it when I was 28 years old and living my dream as a professional actress.  I was diagnosed with 3 auto-immune illnesses and lost my relationship, my home, my work and had to move back in with my family (bless them)  I was lost and felt like a victim but I did take control and wrote a novel this year (prior to the freaking oxy's that landed me in this detox hell)  You just have to keep moving-find a higher power whatever that is.  And the sentence I keep repeating to myself over and over again as i lay here feeling like death warmed over is this- The only way out is through.  My grandmother always used to say that.  Wise woman that she is.  Keep the faith.  You are never alone even if it feels that way.