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I just want to give up! And give in!
My life seemed so "normal" when I was on the percocets, I was able to attend all my children's functions, NEVER missed a game, which there is one everyday, and yesterday for the first time, I missed my son's phenomenal game. Then the more I read on this forum, the more discouraged I feel because just hearing the stories about how long it will take me to get my energy back scares the living **** out of me. I was up at 4 everyday, drop my husband off at work, come back get my children ready and off to school, get myself through my 8 1/2 hr wrk day, come home, beep the horn for the kids to get into the car and head straight to the field. I don't get to step foot back into my home until about 8pm. How am I supposed to wait for at least a month to get my energy back? I'm on day 2 and the only symptoms I'm having now is the lack of energy, mental breakdown, back pain(original reason I started n these things) and a craving that is killing me. I just really want to give up. It's not the physical aspect It's the mental aspect and the energy factor that is driving me insane. I truly hate myself right now.
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Oh, please don't feel like a bad parent. I could tell just from reading your post that your children are the most important people in your life, your love for them is obvious. There are bits of my sons childhood that are a little blurred, because I was abusing my meds. I don't want you to look back in ten years, and not remember all the good times you had with your kids. Don't give up this fight, don't let the pills win, you can do this!! Sending prayers your way.
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I totally get it. It's funny, I don't really remember what it's like to have my own energy. I have been on hydrocodone about 1 1/2 years now and it's all I know. But there are times that I haven't had a pill in so many hours and I wake up and I'm really tired or have no energy and feel bad (sick bad) and that is BECAUSE of the pills. We normally wouldn't feel that way. I look at my husband who has so much energy and goes goes goes and I get jealous. I want to be like that again. I am on day 7 and I'm back at work and I don't feel too bad. The first few days were hard but I was already up on day 3 or 4 and showering and going to the gym, so just be patient. I know it's hard but one day you will just wake up and feel your own energy again :)
Leah
I totally get it. It's funny, I don't really remember what it's like to have my own energy. I have been on hydrocodone about 1 1/2 years now and it's all I know. But there are times that I haven't had a pill in so many hours and I wake up and I'm really tired or have no energy and feel bad (sick bad) and that is BECAUSE of the pills. We normally wouldn't feel that way. I look at my husband who has so much energy and goes goes goes and I get jealous. I want to be like that again. I am on day 7 and I'm back at work and I don't feel too bad. The first few days were hard but I was already up on day 3 or 4 and showering and going to the gym, so just be patient. I know it's hard but one day you will just wake up and feel your own energy again :)
Leah
I just want to feel normal again. I feel like such a sh*tty parent. And I'm thinking about going back to work on monday, tired and annoyed. I know it sounds crazy, but I just want the quick easy fix to feel functional again...
Hi! First off, hate the pills, not yourself. The energy will return, it just takes time. It's one month of discomfort, and in return, you get your life back. Yes, you will have to push yourself everyday to accomplish tasks, but that's just part of the detox. Every day gets better, your energy will return without having to rely on those pills. The longer you take them, the harder it will be to detox from them. Believe me, I totally get where your coming from, I also know how frustrating the lack of energy can be. It just takes a little time and patience. Post here whenever to let out your frustration! Good luck to you! Take care!!
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As far as money goes, I know what you mean about how much it can drain the bank account. Not even counting the money spent on pills, I used to buy stuff with zero discretion, stuff I wouldn't even want if I wasn't high on pills. Its like you try to fill a void. I made horrible decisions while on them that seemed like such a great idea at the time. Its embarrassing to even think about.