Hi everyone. I quit posting because it seems like everything I was posting was not beneficial to the group. I like most people, come on here looking for hope. With my post there was not much hope. Now, after being clean forb9 months, i have hope. After going to doctor to doctor I finally found someone who would listen to me. He took 12 and i mean 12 things of blood. He found that my testosterone both free and total were really low. In fact the range of 350 to 1100, mine was 206. Worse yet, my estrogen was only 15 on a range of 25 to 55. Yes, men need estrogen too. Both of these numbers combined is a recipe for anxiety. How did it get that low?? One of the main causes of men under 65 for low t is opiate abuse and use. Now it all finally made sense. Why i started having anxiety before I even quit them, why it's been almost 9 months and still have the same anxiety i did from day one. I,had docs tell me I need to,increase my ssri, i am bipolar, i need to,learn to,relax and so on. Problem was I couldn't. The only down side is I have to inext myself once a,week with test. I did my first one 5 days ago and my leg still hurts. Its not the diabetic needles these are about an inch and a half long. Its worth it, not to,have to go through this help any longer. I just knew this was not your garden variety anxiety. It is much different than I have ever had. I don't feel anything yet, but I have only done 1 shot. Problem is since i already have low estrogen, my doc wasn't thinking and put an estrogen inhibitor in it causing my estrogen to tank making anxiety horrible. So bad I had to pop some Xanax, which i hate. I,have new stuff now, without the inhibitor in it, so when i,do my injection next week, I should have no anxiety. Please pray and hope this works. I,have talked to so many men who,said their anxiety was caused it worsened by low t. I hope to hear from everyone on this, but please remeber I am a bad hypochondriac, so please don't say anything for me to obsess about. Than you all for always listening.