I'm having a craving!!! A bad one!

[ang_811]

Hey everybody... I'm having a bad cravng!!! I can't seem to get the pills out of my mind! That's all I'm thinking about! I've done eveything on my list I made for myself fr when I do get cravings and when I get done it still comes back! I can't seem t shake it!!!!! It's annoyng! I hate postng this but I'm putting pride to the side and my recovery to no 1!  I think what brought it on is that today's my bday and I can't remeber th last tine I had a sober bday. I was always gven free pills and free drinks! Tonght I'm going out with people from work and be sober while everyone else makes fools of theirselves! It'll be a different experience for me but I can do it! I won't go If I am still having this craving!!!!

[ang_811]

That's how I felt about seeing my counselor the first time. But after I saw him I couldn't wait to go back! I just got 2 get thru 1 and I'll b fine after that. Is there alot of people that go 2 aa who also had poblms with drugs? Do I need 2 b going to both aa and na?

[LMB01]

I remember going to my first meeting- I was terrified. Now, I look forward to my meetings! It is a scary step, but so worth it! You will meet some of the most amazing people in the rooms of AA/NA. You will get the support like you do from this forum, but in person, hands on You will make new friends, who genuinely care about you and you will be able to go out with them, have fun, and yet be sober in clean!  

[laurel453]

you are letting your fears take over you and you are beating yourself, ang.....hey, we are human apart from addicts, we have fears, we get stressed, we get ansious, we want to have fun, we don't want to suffer...we are full of emotions and feelings....but we can not let those emotions cross lines with our addiction.



you can make decisions even if you don't like them very much because it is the best thing for you, whereas while on active addiction, we made decisions every day harming ourselves, what a change now.... don't worry, we have all been there...wishing things that we can't have.. but your health and your life come first :) and if a meeting is going to help you now ...go for it :) you don't have anything to lose with it, it is not going to harm you.

[ang_811]

I was just looking at the brochures my counselor gave me Monday. I'm not gonna lie I'm a lil nervous about going to my first meeting. I know it will benfit me n the long run and I know every1 there is there for the same reason I'm there for... I'm trying 2 get myself back on the right track but it's hard when I want to go out more then I want work on my sobreity. I'm tryng to get it turned around. I know if I went to a meeting it would b good for me. It's like I don't  Wanna be talked out of it though.that's how I feel.  I'm trying to get out of the mind set.

[dominosarah]

Have you thought about going to any meetings??

[ang_811]

I saw him Monday. But I don't go back 2 c him until the 30th bc of my work schedule. .