I'm having a craving!!! A bad one!

[ang_811]

Hey everybody... I'm having a bad cravng!!! I can't seem to get the pills out of my mind! That's all I'm thinking about! I've done eveything on my list I made for myself fr when I do get cravings and when I get done it still comes back! I can't seem t shake it!!!!! It's annoyng! I hate postng this but I'm putting pride to the side and my recovery to no 1!  I think what brought it on is that today's my bday and I can't remeber th last tine I had a sober bday. I was always gven free pills and free drinks! Tonght I'm going out with people from work and be sober while everyone else makes fools of theirselves! It'll be a different experience for me but I can do it! I won't go If I am still having this craving!!!!

[dominosarah]

I was hoping you werent going to say that.  Where is the fight you have in you?  

[keith600]

If your craving chocolate cake and dont want to go off your diet then dont go to the bakery,,it will pass.

[laurel453]

fight...so you have painful memories so you hurt yourself more, yeah, right...you don't need self-harming too ... you can not give up on you , ang.

you can break this cycle of hurting yourself, it is a behaviour you can change. there is simply no reason good enough to hurt our health and our well being that way. you know this because you have been fighting for this, don't stop fighting " five minutes before the miracle" as some say here...:)

this too shall pass, right :)

[ang_811]

Well every1 will be happy 2 know that it's Saturday night and I'm home! My plan was 2 go out to see my favorite band ever but it's at a bar and I'm not going! It's hard very hard! My addiction is screaming at me right now to go! I told it  to "put a sock n it" lol

[dominosarah]

Now this is good news!!!  

[gnarly_1]

HI Angie in so proud your picking yourself back up and moving forward with this thing
tomorrow get up early and go for your run....then back to swimming again start doing all the healthy things you were doing before this happened..you just have to put one foot in front of the other and take the high road again....im glad your circumventing certain disaster here
you will find as you gain clean time that this does get ezer you just have to lead with your sober mind let the addict take a back seat I will keep you in my prayers and stay in touch
your friend Mark