Using is NOT an option, Giving up is NOT an option. Getting thru this IS your option. We are all faced with trying times my friend. We dont go around the issues, we walk thru them and deal with them. I just said goodbye to my beloved companion, using was not an option for me. I have been crying for days now but i am working thru the emotions. We dont hide when things get tough. Numbing ourselves up will only cause more pain and suffering. Get yourself up out of bed, take a shower, go for a walk, look around at all you have to be grateful for, write them down, turn on the music, hug your pets, hug yourself and then tell yourself you are stronger than this addiction and you will get thru~~
Honey, do you have a NA sponsor you can call? or just anyone, a veteran, at NA you can call and speak to directly? Someone who has been through this? I noticed your status update yesterday and saw that something is wrong! Please don't give up! Keep fighting and reaching out! Are you able to talk to your husband about this? We are here for you Bkitty! Keep talking! I'm so very sorry! You can work through this! Hugs!!
You know in your heart its not worth it.
keep moving forward.
next right/healthy decision.
LOVE.
we all need our REAL strength right now .... the world is going 2 SH** !!!
Be Strong.
luvluvluv!!!!!!
I was just checking the posts before I leave on a week long trip! Please take care of yourself bkitty!!! I care for you and want you to be safe and hopeful! Please do what is best to stay clean. You are loved and we all care for you! I pray all goes well. (this is big I never say that!). Love you!
I'll throw my two cents in, when I quit the hydro's I also had to quit the Tylenol PMs, I was in those things for 14 yrs, .. I know they say non addictives, and they might not be physically addictive, but they are mentally, I'd panic if I didn't have enough... Sleep is natural now, Thank GOD!
You ate an inspiration, along with many more here, you always have the right thing to say, when needed.. You'll get thru this, I said a prayer, and HE is faithful.
SO glad you made the move to get some help withthis, both with your doc and your husband. It is not every spouse that is supportive, so its great ya got that goin' for ya.
Yes, we are pulling for you! Keep us posted when you can,
hugs,
Lily
You will often her me say that we relapse mentally, emotionally and spiritually before we pick up the drug. If you are lucky enough to catch it, you can prevent it. And the good news is that you have caught it. The only thing a pill will do right now is make your life unmanageable. The guilt alone will drive you crazy. You have come to far and have learned too many lessons to throw it all away. You CAN get through this.
If you are taking medication then you have the type of depression that is a chemical imbalance. Good. that can be fixed. Often times the medication needs to be adjusted or changed. You should phone your doctor right away and get in to see him/her. Don't wait on this.
Second, I understand you sitting in the meetings and not talking. I did the same darn thing and the only person I hurt was me. I had to force myself to get involved and I did do that only because I was so afraid of what was out there if I relapsed. I had done several jail stints and several rehab stays and I knew death was the only thing I had not done. I forced myself to speak up and get involved and I don't regret that decision.
You are already showing signs of relapse by admittedly self-medicating to sleep. It is an escape mechanism and it is so dangerous. You don't have to run.
Please, please...if you can't talk at meetings then talk here or ask your doctor about private counseling or group counseling. Whatever is making you want to run can be dealt with. Please keep talking.
I'm sending hugs and prayers.....