Bad cravings tonight :(

[Back2Me]

Yeah. It's like that. I have put it a GOOD 4 hours of work, it's late, I don't feel TOO bad but man I cannot keep my brain from going there. Just one, just tonight, can't hurt, you can control it. You know the drill. Just REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bites.
I am at 15 days and feeling much better.  I have never made it to 15 days. My last wd was brutal that's why I have made it this far. My "aftercare" therapy was weak the first visit did nit seem to help much. This is goin to be a HUGE test. I am even thinking about taking an ambien to get the weirdo buzz from that instead of usig perc's. Anything to keep me from perc's :(

[Back2Me]

Yes eating very good ( trying to shed about 25 lbs). Exercising (walking and running) on an almost daily basis basis. I have been slacking my vitamins though. Just went and picked up some tyrosine just now. I also have. B12 and 5-htp and calcium and mag. Don't get me wong in general I feel pretty damn good mist of the time now. Better and better each day. The last 3 days have actually been great except for last nights vampire like craving. I did get very discouraged but damn it I am NOT giving up yet! It's beautifull outside today and I can actually "feel" it. It's been a looong time since I could say that. It's great being clean. It's just staying that way that ***** sometimes. :)

[vicki595]

Day 16...that's great!!   I wish you felt better,though.  :(
Are you doing all the "stuff"?   Vitamins,good food,NA?

Vicki  xo

[Back2Me]

Made it. Barely. And I am already dreading tonight for some reason. Just afraid it will be like last night. I ended up taking 2 klonipins 2 beers and one ambien at the end of the night. Medication I have never had any problems with before as far as abusing. Well maybe the ambien but I'm over that mess. Never was addicted but probably closing in on it. Anyway I know it wasn't the PERCECT way of handling things but the end result was that I did not touch an opiate!  The ONE pill that has just about destroyed my life ( and that WILL destroy my life) is still not in my system and it is day 16 :)

[vicki595]

How are you today???

Vicki ~

[Back2Me]

This is going to be the death of me. You heard it here first. There is no way I am beating this forever. No way.

[Back2Me]

Yeah I know. Just took a klonny. That should settle me down. I never had a problem with them or ativan so they are a safe med for me. I have like 3 full bottles and refills that I never filled For anxiety. I just took .5 mg and an energy drink. I know rat sounds crazy but I think it will work. ANYTHING TO KEEP ME FROM TOUCHING AN OPIATE. I think crysis averted. For now. Man this is the WORSE one I have ever had by FAR. WOW.

[vicki595]

Your addiction just wrote that last post.

V.

[Back2Me]

It was me. I work at home. I have used and managed well up until a year ago to get me through rough spots with pain and energy. I did get really carried away the last year but I did manage well for like 2 years before that. Here I am trying to talk myself into it.  :(

[Back2Me]

Why can't I just be freaking normal and be able to take something only when I need it. It would Be really nice at a time like this. and I haven't really needed anythig up until tonight. The need just wasn't there like it is tonight. I cannot get that feeling of just one, just tonight out of
my head!

[vicki595]

This happens all the time...try to hang on...the cravings become less and less. I wish you didn't have pills around...that's never good.
So,you're at home right?  Can you make some coffee...get your work done?
I'm trying to remember...Didn't this happen before when you needed to get work done and wanted a pill to help you? Or someone else?   Hmmm...

Try to push through...keep posting~

Vicki  xo

[pharma9]

I would not combine advil and aleve...too hard on the stomach,but you can take advil and tylenol extra strength 1000mg every 4 hours max 4000mg/24hrs.
Tramadol is not classed as a narcotic,but works on the opiate receptors and is a synthetic opiate.I would stay away from that one.
Sounds like you are describing rebound pain...and I took 800mg ibuprofen every 6 hrs max 2400mg/24hr along with tylenol extra strength as stated above and that got me through the rebound pain.

[Back2Me]

I even thought about taking a tramadol. I never got hooked on those. Not my style. I do have 2 of them laying around though. I just feel stressed, my back is sore and my head is really achy. I have been taking advil and aleive but it's not helping :(

[pharma9]

Pop a b12 under the tongue and try to concentrate on work.Perhaps when myoy get distracted by work your craving will pass.

[josh231]

dont do it once you get to work you will be fine


dont even think about bring it with you, you shouldnt even have them with you, your better than this and you know it, you dont want to go through day 1- 15 again

it blows

you wil survive and you will be glad you didnt take this in the morning

REGRET is worse than addiction lol

good luck i believe you will make the right choice... your on day 15

[Back2Me]

I have TO put in a good four hours work tonight is what I meant. Sorry. iPhone keyboard.