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[jMiCHELLE_xO]

Hello everyone, I am knew to this site was just reading things on here and which made me just know to create myself an account.. the people seem very nice and helpful, which is what I am really needing right now.
    I am trying to get all suggesting on help with wds I was recently was sober from heroin for a little over 3 months and relapsed in March. I basically only keep at it cuz I can't handle the wds last time I bought soboxone of the street to get off. This time I can't find them and afford them I'm sick finally come up with 25$ can't find subs right then so I find myself right back at my dealers getting a half gram. I need help with things that will take the wds away I'm 21 I'm a single mom of an 18 month old boy, my ex fiance ran out on us when he was born it's very hard dealing with full blown wds with a toddler/baby who needs me 24 hours 7 days a week. Pls help I want to be the best mother to my son t that I can possibly be, I can't live my life this way. It's miserable, I was so happy clean and sober. Don't have a clue what took me back.

[gnarly_1]

Hi congrats on wanting to get clean you where given great advise  I just wanted to put my 2 cents in..........the key here is aftercare I have tried many things but my addiction all ways came back for me N/A is the best choice it will tech you  new ways to live and will give you the support you need  it is a critical step so many dont follow threw with aftercare and relapse you will be welcome with a hug and actually  be the most important person in the fellow ship  ''we cant keep it unless we give it a way please try this   the only way to fail is to try and do this alone good luck with your recovery and keep posting for support
............................................Gnarly.....................................

[VICourageous]

Hi..I want to welcome you too! We do have a lot of people that came of the H that they used for MANY Years..BUT no matter what we used, we all have a Addiction issues..This being a Brain disease it can not ever be cured, but can be put in remission with LOTS of work for the rest of our lives. Stick around and we will hold your hand all the way through the detox, but then it is up to you to go out and get that aftercare..You can also stay here for all the Support you need and to also help the next one that comes along. Wishing you the Best!
Bless

[nursegirl6572]

I just wanted to also welcome you!  You'll be so glad you found MedHelp!  Such amazing people here.  You will not only learn a ton, but you'll get all the support you could imagine, and then some!

Add me to the list of your cheerleaders!!

[clean_in_ks]

Hi there and welcome to the forum!

Glad you found us.....and you are SO right.....as far as I'm concerned this is the best addiction recovery forum in the WORLD....LOL

You can do this.....and it's better to avoid the suboxone route anyhow.....I have more than one friend here that wishes, in hindsight, that they had just come off the H and skipped the subs.  

At the bottom of this page are some "Most Viewed Health Pages".....you can read them and click "more" to read any or all of them.  The Re-Posted Thomas Recipe is a really good thing to read....and gives you some things to do, eat, drink, buy or take to make the w/drawal process a little easier.

I hope you'll get in touch with Mamaof4410 above......at least private message her.....she's been thru this once before....and is now clean again just like you.  I think you two may have some things in common.

You say you don't have a clue what took you back.....but it's usually a trigger of some kind (stress in particular)...and then associating with people who still use....or returning to places we associate with using.  If not one of those.....it's trying to do it alone and not going to any type of aftercare.
Those are HUGE........we can't just take the drug away and not learn new ways of thinking and living......as addicts we NEED some recovery tools in our tool boxes (for life)~  Best wishes....glad you're aboard~

[mamaof4410]

First off welcome to MH!
Second...im also a recovering heroin addict. 79 days. You have to surrender to the wd's. If you have a friend or family that does not use go to their house and have them help with your baby. My husband and I have 5 kids and im 26. I tried over and over again to get clean and I failed. After the wd's after care is crucial. If you want to inbox me and ill give u my cell number. I know all to well where you are. Wd's scared the crap outta me. Then I was given a choice...heroin or my family and sobriety. You have to be ready to stop.
Your little boy should be enough motivation to get clean and stay clean. You have to have support and cut everyone out of your life that uses.
I went thru about 5 days of the really bad detox. You feel like your dying...your not. Just remember it does get better. Inbox me