redo....advice

[sunshinedaydream3]

so...

last week when i went home for that funeral, i decided hey i'll just take a couple of those tylenol 3's to get some good sleep tongiht...

next day i bought some 10's

now im sitting here with an 80 ....

i've taken 120 milligrams since sunday....

i know thats not alot ... but ....

i feel so worthless, and pathetic, and weak, and like i've been a lie on this board....

im thinking about doing a little in the morning, to get me through class/work, flushing the rest, and getting back on full board this wkend....

what should i expect, in comparison to last time when i made it 7 days and was feeling a lot better??

im so sorry guys, i really am, i feel like i let you down, but it doesn't compare to how bad i feel to myself....

[worried878]

always tell people..u did not let us down..u let u down...these were ur goals and ur values...not ours  but u slipped up..turned to an old famliar coping mechanism/pills in a time of great stress...does not mean u r ruined...only that u have to get back on track...fast...and as time goes on that wont be the first coping mechanism u turn to in times of turmoil..ur brain just has not caught up with u and healed enuf as of yet...but it will!,,keep moving forward

[joann1975]

I vote flush! Show that pill who is boss. YOU can do this. Please don't beat yourself up.. addiction is a war...it's hard enough as it is and beating yourself up doesn't make it better. Also, you don't have to apologize to us...we understand! We've all been there. You can do this and you will do this!!

Like R2R said...One Day At A Time!

Take Care...keep up the good work and keep posting!

JoAnn

[road2recovery]

I agree with bandnmom, I would flush ...The more you take, the harder the w/d's..You have to put everything you are made into this..You can do this!!  You are not weak, you are STRONGER then that little pill...
One day at a time!!!
r2r

[bandnmom]

Dont beat yourself up over it. Get rid of what u have left and start from fresh. Not everyone makes it on there first try!! or second, third, etc... I sure didnt!!! Good luck and stay strong!

[Vicotram]

Keep going brother I have quit so many times and failed you can do it.