No Choice but to CT off vicodin and soma... Any help?

[adriansmommy]

According to everyone's advice on my first post... I shouldn't CT soma? Financially and otherwise, I have no choice but to CT off of both, I have only two somas left, and I am saving them for tonight so that I might sleep at least a lil bit tonight... I just swallowed my last lortab....  I am so terrified of this, but know that is has to be done... Does anyone on here have experience coming off of a cocktail of both these medications WITHOUT a drs help? I need honesty of what to expect, and a time length I'm looking at... I have a one year old son that I have to look after no matter how bad I feel... Thank you all so much for the help!

[ImDONENoMore]

No one is going to laugh at you because we're not in a position to judge.    I'm just trying to give you some things to think about.  It's easy to come up with excuses for why we can't reach out for help (believe me I know - I did he same thing) and it wasn't until I was honest with the people who loved me did I finally have a chance.  It's just too dam* hard and too complicated to try and do this on your own.  If you've already been to NA, I think it's worth it to try again.  What have you got to lose at this point right?  Everything has to change and that's scary, I know.  But you have to start someplace - and you CAN do this.  But please get the support in person that you can.  Wouldn't you do the same for someone you loved if they needed your help?  Of course you would - so give someone else that chance to do the same for you.  :)

[adriansmommy]

Thank you, I needed to hear that, I have been considering telling my family the truth, I am just terrified that they will place judgements on my parenting or try to say that I shouldn't have my son, he is my whole reson for being, I have always been honest about my past addictions, to any and everyone, but now that I am a mother that is my number one thought- Can I lose my son? If so, I wouldn't be able to make it through the day

[ImDONENoMore]

I know - it's scary to risk opening yourself up like this to someone.  BELIEVE ME, I know.  But I can not tell you the difference having their support has made for me.  People are a lot more forgiving than we give them credit for - at least your loved ones will be.  If they see you are serious about this and they know you are going to do everything possible to get better, they'll be there to help.  I'm sure they miss the real you - I know my husband did.  And it can be a HUGE relief to get this off your chest - one of our members here, gnarly, said something SO true - "our secrets keep us sick".  And he's right.  There's no shame in asking for help, none whatsoever.  EVERYBODY needs help sometimes.  Everybody.  :)

[vicki595]

Hi...I just want to let you know that it's dangerous for anyone here to give you dosage amounts. Frankly, it's against forum guidelines...also,clonidine lowers your BLOOD PRESSURE so it needs to be prescribed for you medically...

Good luck!

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  I'm not sure why you can't stop cold turkey.  I'm sure there is a reason if you were advised not to, but I stopped the same cocktail a few years ago, and I had no help.  The Soma was pretty hard for me, but it was hard to tell which was causing the worst WD symptoms when I was WDing from hydrocodone at the same time.  I had not taken Soma for a long time.  Maybe a few months if I remember correctly.  But like everything I took, I took WAY too much of it.  Anyway, maybe you could go to an ER if you need some medical help?  They cannot refuse treatment to you.  They can give you some clonidine and instructions on the safe way to take it.  They can also tell you the best way to stop the Soma since you have been told not to stop CT.  

Don't let fear of judgement stop you from getting some aftercare.  NO ONE can judge you at a 12 step meeting, as they are there for the very same reason as you.  Besides you don't have to even open your mouth until you are ready!  Just listen and try to soak up everything you can! : )

Good luck!

[vicki595]

I had said on another post not to abruptly stop Soma. It's because of the seizure activity that develops and really,I think it's one of the more dangerous drugs to detox from.

I sure hope you get some help with this.  At this point,given you have a child, I think you need to call your family for help.

All the best!