No Choice but to CT off vicodin and soma... Any help?

[adriansmommy]

According to everyone's advice on my first post... I shouldn't CT soma? Financially and otherwise, I have no choice but to CT off of both, I have only two somas left, and I am saving them for tonight so that I might sleep at least a lil bit tonight... I just swallowed my last lortab....  I am so terrified of this, but know that is has to be done... Does anyone on here have experience coming off of a cocktail of both these medications WITHOUT a drs help? I need honesty of what to expect, and a time length I'm looking at... I have a one year old son that I have to look after no matter how bad I feel... Thank you all so much for the help!

[adriansmommy]

I honestly would use it to get help, as far as my son's father is concerned... I really don't have the answer. I have thought about the na in my area, I have been once or twice, but for some reason it didn't feel like.. I belonged there- Like the people would laugh at me if they heard my pitiful story... That, of course, was years ago with lesser addictions on my back.

[ImDONENoMore]

You can't quit just because you don't have the money to get more.  It won't work - it has to come from someplace deeper within for it to have any lasting meaning.  I mean, what if someone gave you both money right now?  Would you use it to get help from Dr. or just buy more pills?  And AA and NA are free so you could start there.

[adriansmommy]

My problem is, We have spent every last cent we have to spend on pills this weekend, we have none left, and zero money... The drs that have prescribed me these things are very expensive- pill mills- I'm sure you know the term? I was prescribed lortabs throughout my pregnancy a year ago, so I could say that it stems from that to protect myself, I just don't have even twenty bucks at this point to get in to a dr... We have pawned everything possible, borrowed from everyone who will give without asking questions... My husband has no choice but to quit at the moment, we just simply do not have the money...

[ImDONENoMore]

There are Dr.'s out there who will treat you based on a payscale - meaning you can pay what you can afford while in treatment and have a payment plan set in place.  If you can find the money for the drugs every day then you can use that money towards a Dr.'s care.  You need to be more realistic about what you're trying to do - just "willing" yourself clean doesn't work.  Is your husband trying to quit as well?  I ask because it can be next to impossible to get clean and STAY clean if your partner is still abusing drugs.  There's no easy way out of this and it takes a lot of work to get well.  But it is POSSIBLE if you get a realistic plan in place.  And I just saw your other thread and you were warned that stopping the soma can be extremely dangerous - so it's in your best interest to find a Dr. who can work with you.  I don't think you're being realistic about the situation and I only want to see you succeed and to do this as safely as possible.  And you mentioned that you were getting the drugs from a Dr. in addition to buying them off the streets - why couldn't you start with that doc?

[adriansmommy]

Because I have no insurance and don't have the money to pay outright... Yes, almost everyday we find a way to come up with the money to get a fix or just get fronted until paydays... But by the time I had saved enough to go to a dr I would probably be past the worst withdrawal symptoms... I'm just scared and lost. I'm in The States, and a hospital probably will only refer me to a regular dr....

[ImDONENoMore]

Why can't you get a Dr.'s help??