Nurofen Plus

[sohhs29]

I am a returning member to this forum. I went through ct 2 years ago and am now doing it again. I am up to day 5 ct and it is crap. I know what to expect so this is nothing new. What i would like to know is how the hell do I stay off these things.

[clean_in_ks]

Well good for you and your open mind!!!  Can't wait till you come back on and tell us that you have told ALL your chemists...LOL  That WILL BE a happy day to celebrate, eh?

I'm glad you have the support of your mum and husband.....and I too lied to some people during active addiction.....no worries though....a CLEAN you in the future will present opportunities to mend that relationship with your sister.  Your ACTIONS will speak WAY louder than any words...right?

As far as aftercare support....there are as many ways as there are people any more.  Here are just a few:  addiction counselor, therapist, small group, some intensive outpatient groups for addicts, cognitive behavioral therapy small groups, traditional 12 step groups like AA , NA, CA, etc., they have Christian support groups like Celebrate Recovery, Overcomers Outreach, church small groups, Smart Recovery, LifeRing Secular Recovery, Rational Recovery,etc. for those wanting a non-12 step group approach.  I even read the other day here on the forum there is a Buddhist Recovery Network.
Hope that helps....there's really no excuse for an addict not to invest in recovery....whatever your beliefs....there's a support network out there.  Our lives depend on it....and staying clean is what it's all about.

[sohhs29]

Hi there clean_in_ks. You are right. I do need to tell the Chemists. The other day I went in to get some Lomotil (Immodium) and before I could speak, she went and grabbed an packet of N+. I had to say, oh no thanks and then asked what I came there for. The last time I detoxed I actually did tell a couple of chemists, and then just avoided those ones when I went back on the addiction train. I will go and tell them all. You are right, it is a back up for if, or when, the voices tell me just get one packet.

Yes, I have told my family about it. My sister isn't speaking to me because I lied to her but my mum and husband are supporting me. I am open to some sort of support, what do you suggest? Thanks for commenting. It means a lot. xxxx

Cheers.

[sohhs29]

I am up to 22 days clean and I am going good. Sleep has been a problem however last night I think I got the most sleep since Day 2 or 3. So that in itself makes me feel better. I have had a mild craving but it is more because it is taking so long to feel normal again, I fantasise about taking a few to make me feel better, HOWEVER, this thought is dismissed STRAIGHT AWAY. I won't do it. It has taken too much of a toll on my body and I won't go back there.
You are correct, once I have a good day I think GREAT, it is over, but then I have a CRAP day, however I am sure I will be having more good days than bad now.

Hey chocolate sounds good. I might try that next time. xx Cheers.

[clean_in_ks]

Congrats on....what is now?  22 days???  You've passed the 3 wk mark of the physical detox and you are getting better now, eh?

Since you really seem to want to STAY clean past the 2 month mark...imo, it's going to take more than a "different mindset".  The experience "harmsnogood" gave you is EXCELLENT!  I can't even imagine being able to obtain codeine over the counter.  Communicating to all the chemists that you are addicted and NOT to sell you any will help shut off the future "voices in your head" that will surely come.  

Do you have anyone in your life that knows what you are struggling with?
How about "some form" of aftercare.....some addiction recovery support?
Are you open to that?  Cause while it is completely doable to get off of opiates again......if you are an addict like I am.....knowing you can "get" pills and not having and support from other recovering addicts is a recipe for relapse.

I'm rootin for you....hope you'll consider more than a new mindset this go around and that you'll be successful in staying clean~

[Pat1956100]

I know, once we have 1 good day then we want them all to be good.  I think you should start having more good days now.  Is your sleep getting any better?  You must be getting close to 25 days clean.
How are you handling the cravings?  I find that to be the worst part but I keep telling myself that my body is screaming for chocolate and then go buy some, lol.  It works.

[sohhs29]

Thanks. Some days it feels like two steps forward and one step back. It is a slow process but worth it. I am going to do things differently this time by changing my mindset. I can't rely on drugs to make me feel happy and energetic. It has to come from within. This is what I am focusing on now. I know I can do it. I really do. I owe it to my family to be successful for once.

Thanks for reading and commenting. It means a lot. xx