Outside world

[WODAgirl]

I can't even go on Facebook or anything like that because people complain about the most trivial stuff. Or maybe I'm just jealous that my biggest problem isn't that I have to clean the bathroom or don't have enough time to stop at the dry cleaners. It's not THEIR fault my life is messed up...it's mine....so why am I so aggravated by this??

[Back2Me]

I'm only a day ahead and telling you that will change.oately because I've been there I had 30 days once and I'm telling you I was pretty much totally back to normal. But I only talk to select people right now. But there is tons of stuff I cannot do now like open a freaking bill! Can't stand to see bills right now. I'm about to burn down the mailbox!!

[WODAgirl]

I'm not answering the phone either. :(

[alex1234]

I'm right there with you!!! I'm also getting aggravated at everything... Like DON'T THEY KNOW I FEEL LIKE HELL! Then I remember no, they don't!  I've barely even answered my phone cause I don't want to hear about their  fun plans.  I'm pretty sure it's normal to feel like this whenever you are going through any illness or terrible situation, which you are. Xo

[WODAgirl]

Oh, I've already come to terms that I'll always be an addict. Guess I just gotta get over it. Thanks for the congrats. :)

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on 6 days clean! Aftercare, like NA, will really help in dealing with the outside world. Ariley is right on when she says "We need to be focused on getting better". Aftercare is the ticket to getting better. Addiction is a complex disease that needs to be treated. The physical part is one thing, but when we take away all the drugs, we unearth some complex thinking which had been dormant while we were out getting loaded. It all needs to be dealt with for us to get better. Your post was a good description of the very tip of the ice burg when it comes to that thinking. And, you're not alone. It's just a symptom of the disease all of us addicts have. Like Ariley said, we need to work on our recovery.

I know that being and addict it's something I can never reverse. I'll always be an addict. So, I keep going to NA; which helps me to accept my new life on life's terms. I found that for me, going there and working on my recovery with other addicts is my addiction's worst enemy.

[ariley13]

I think that right now it's ok for it to be all about us ya know. We need to be focused on getting better whether we did it to ourselves or not. I know that for me its a combination of anxiety and lack of sleep that are making me so grumpy. I just keep telling everyone that I'm sorry if i'm being short or grumpy with them. Luckily they have understood and been supportive.

[WODAgirl]

Still feel bad. Feel like I should respect them more bc I did this...not them. Maybe it's partly the anxiety too.

[ariley13]

Ive been going through that too. Especially with my bf. Really trying to not to be irriitable with him. I think it's probably pretty normal. We are going through some heavy stuff that makes the everyday stresses look trivial.