Well here I go!

[woowoo67]

I have been abusing Hydro, Oxis, and Percs for about 3 years now and I have gotten to the point where I am about to really screw up my life, I have got to stop!  I had back surgery 3 years ago and my doc put me on 120 hydro 10's ... and after about 6 months I started eating them all in about a week and a half and began buying whatever I could off of the street.  Now 6 monthes ago I lost my insurance and I was behind on my bill to my doc and cut me off!!!  Since then I am spending every dollar on this **** ...  I don't even get high anymore, I just eat them to keep from getting sick.  I am really dreading this but I will do it, I have to do it .... I am just tired of lying to everyone around me and to myself.  I am an addict and I simply cannot eat 1 or 2 a day, once I get 1 in my system I will eat them all.  I have been taking about 8 to 20 a day and when I run out and cannot find any the wd's are a *****,  the insomnia and rls is the worst ... it drives me crazy.

I have been a lurker at this forum for about 6 months and I have finally made the decision to stop and I am making my first post to coincide.  This is a great site and I am so dam glad I found it, I went to GNC and got all the stuff for the Amino protocal.  

Take care everyone

wb

[K Todd]

Het there brother...congrats on Day 3...your almost though hell ...!!!  It all gets better after day 4 physically for most !!

I finally did it again with the right motive (like you have) and now on Day 27 and feel so great...and I am so glad I went trough a couple days of hell, to get here...you well not regret it at all my friend !!

Hey..I used a over the counter Allergy-Cold Sinus medication for the runny nose, sneezing and watery eyes....I actually used Walgreens "Walfinate"....but they have so many different ones from Benydral, Clariton, Tylenol Cold and Sinus...etc...we help you out alot.

Plus...you did get some Immodium AD right?....to slow down those bathroom trips!

Keep up the fight...your almost thru the worst days of hell in your life...and the reward is more than I can put into words !!

God Bless,
Todd

[woowoo67]

Well I am into day 3 and my nose wont stop running and sneezing is a pain.  My whole body aches and the rls drives me crazy  I cant sleep but besides that I feel fine.  hehe ....  oh this ***** but it has to be done.  I have not even thought about getting high so I am very confident this is going to get done.

thanks every one for the support, and good luck to all of you

[hobbity]

I really am proud of you.  I had to be backed into a corner to get out of this.  I finally was over feeling bad about myself and knew I had to do something even though it's painful and hard to do in the long run it will pay off.

Look I've been thru hell and I suggest you get a journal and start to write out all the reasons why you don't want to use and what being off these drugs will mean to you and how you will have your life back.   So when you have a weak moment and want to cave in  you can read about why you want off this crazy life.  I would hate for you to wind up caught in an arrest and have to detox in a jail.  I can't imagine having to detox anywhere but my house with my privacy.  There is that risk you take buying off the street so get off now.

I don't know how much time I have left before they drag me off to inpt rehab.  My goodness Amy Winehouse is singing tonight!  But I will be around to help urge you forward.
I also have sneezed my head off.  I never did that before in the withdrawls but this time I can't stop sneezing.  Day 3 at the end I finally quit with the nasty runny nose.  Quit with the restless legs and that is a huge relief.  It's a 3 day cruise.
To your recovery.  Day 4 is a better day.

[JBailey]

God Bless you girl.  I am right behind you about to detox off of oxys, i take 3 80mg oxys 3 times per day.  And that doesn't get me high just keeps the withdrawl off of me.  The worst for me is the feeling i get.  There are certain "positive effects" of oxys.  That is why i take it.  I suffer from severe depression, anytime i am not loaded with oxy i "hurt" mentally, really hurt.  Everything is black and nothing is good. Let me know how you do here.  We can trade phone numbers if you want to.  I chased all my friends off long ago in lieu of drugs.  

[extrmeski]

Let everyone know how you are doing, it's gonna be the hardest thing that you have ever done but then again just think of how accomplished you will feel!!

[woowoo67]

Oh .. Ok ... well to be honest I really do not know?  I have simply just got to say "no" when the dope is around, and it will be!  The pills have really taken a toll on my financial situation and some relationships.  So I have to remind myself of the disaster that this **** has caused me.  I have hurt a lot of people that I care so much for, and I am not proud of that at all.  I have got alot of work to do to earn trust and respect back.  

I just really feel small right now and that is a huge motivational factor for myself.  I have always taken pride in everything I have done and the situation I have put myself in is shamefull .....  I am embarresed at my life right now.  

Dan that is a good question and i really have not put much thought into it.  

[worried878]

ur plan?   meaning what is ur plan for aftercare and staying clean....getting clean is so easy..staying clean is the hard part...day by day is a good appraoach...but having a back up for weak times is also a necessity

[me1972]

GOOD FOR YOU!    BEST Of Luck !    XOXO!

[woowoo67]

This really is a great resource for people that are struggling!  Like I said earlier I am glad I found this place!

Good luck to all of you, and take care!

[woowoo67]

Not sure what you are asking but ....  I started today FRI, ate my last 5 blue 10's Thursday at 8pm.  Thats it.  I have deleted all of my "contacts numbers",   I have told my good friends that I will not be hanging out for a while.  Other than that I live by myself and outside of class I do not have to deal with a work situation ....  and I am glad for that.

I guess one day at a time is the only way I can look at this?  

I'm not sure exactly what to expect?  I have not went longer than 4 days without drugs for the last 3 years and that was not a good feeling.  I honestly cannot remember what it feels like to feel normal.  But I will soon enough!

[worried878]

yep...sounds like ur time is here...sitting in class during wds is preferable to working tho..count ur blessings and go for it while u r not working...going thru detox and the aftermath while trying to hold a job can be pure he!!.....so what is ur plan?

[woowoo67]

Well Extrm .. I have always been in great shape and used to ride my mountain bike 6-10 miles a day, lift free weights 3 days a week and generally stay active.  BUT NOW the last 6 months in particular I have rode my bike maybe 5 times all summer, I lift maybe 1 time every 2 weeks, and I simply cannot do anything unless I get high right out of bed.  I am disgusted with myself....  i have turned into a dam junkie!  This **** is controlling my life and I am simply sick of being sick!

I am drawing unemployment so I do not have to worry about coworkers dipping into my business, but I am taking 3 classes at the local college and I do not look forward to sitting a classroom with a bunch of strangers listening to me sneezing and sniffling!

F@#* it, It has to happen now!

[extrmeski]

Good luck, it's hard but your bank account will thank you.  It's an expensive habit when you have to get the stuff off the street.  I just had to tell myself it was the flu and there is nothing I can do about it.  it was the hardest thing that I have ever done and I've done 4 triathlons.  But you can do it!  It's mind over matter and you sound like you are ready!

[woowoo67]

Thank you Eagle!

I am ready!

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

I like your handle - its cute. Look at the right hand side of page. Under health disussions find the Thomas Recipe and the Amino Acid Protocols. Then read them. Now follow them. You have hit that mark where they do not control any pain...its all you can do to just keep what you consider staright right now. But you have realized that and you wish to do something about it. Knowledge is power here. Read through the forum posts as much as you can...... and keep posting for support and knowledge. Good luck to you..its time to get your life back --------- you have done well by already getting the ingredients for detox. Just saw that. So now you just have to do it. And you realize that "have" is the operative word here. It wont get any easier......I found benadryl to be good for sleep. Calcium / magnesium supps work for RLS. So can some other things. Try heat and cold alternating at twenty minute intervals..Stay with the forum for support and questions..good luck to you......eagle