Oxycontin WD - 4th day-helpme

[mego579]

Im barely able to type right now.  I went on a trip to a remote house boat with freinds and discovered what WD really are. I'd been using oOxycontin up to 300 mg a day for about 2 years and while on the trip i thought it would be ok to break my 40 mg pills into 4ths and take them because i was running out with no chance of refill before the trip.  The WD started and the whole 4ths of a pill thing was out the window. They were gone before the first night and my freind had to confine me into a room of the house boat while they said i had seizures, screaming, begging to die, not sleeping in days until i was given Ketamine which is a drug i'd usually abused in the past and was familiar with but i'm not sure if it was a good idea or not becuase while in a K-hole i was able to stop the crazy leg shaking etc, but still felt everything jsut the same ( only being imobilized).  
Made it home, its day 4
my eyes are crazy dialeted still, my mind works but i cant communicate really yet without my voice shaking. i'm trying to eat ( the first night i puked like 30 times) but my stomach HURTS after. My skin is crawling.

I took the oxy in the first place because i have severe rhumetoid arthritis.
what do i do?
can i really ride this out here at home w/ my bf?(who was up for the whole time and is exhausted) - feeling better but thats not really saying much because i feel like HELL.
HELL!

how many days will this go on?
please

[dellta]

just stay in the fight period give yourself a chance you can always turn back and start this b.s all over again!!! so just stay the course trust me and all the others here you will !!!! i promise you will get better please just hang in there because the ulturnitive is back on the op train and this all starts over again

[sid3]

Your right, sub is definitely not an option, you way past that. Besides the fact that nine out of ten Drs don't have any idea about what the F they're doing. Lots of cash$$ for the greedy bastards. Your doing great Mego, I am glad to see it's getting better every day for you.

[worried878]

Girl u sound like u r ready to be clean..i can feel it in ur post..u r so close to feeling so much better..dont turn back now..seek support if u feel the need to use...to me aftercare works better than sub ceptit does takewds away  if u have to work or sumpin ..but u r way over the hump...going on sub now would be moving backward..and ur moving forward!  Congrats on ur clean time..put all the balls in ur court so u will win this game//nasty game but u wanna win over those yucky pills...they suk the life out of u!

[mego579]

thanks worried - thats exactly what i was thinking! i'm pretty sure u take sub if u give up the 1st week... now that i'm 2 week i'm not givin up! i passed that POINT ALONG TIME AGO! **** the 5th day woulda been a give up!
i've been in hell for 2 week ( i'll never forget it ) theres no way on this earth i want to EVER feel like this again - NEVER
even after 2 weeks i feel crappy - but 10000 time better than yesturday or the day b4 -

one day at a time - i have a few freinds who are x-heroin addicts and they even said after a month they were bak to some kind of normal - and they are older now and better and i look up to them for the strength to stay clean -
never going back
i'd rather feel generally yuky than all **** all the time and being addicted to oxy!
NOOO!

[worried878]

Mego is 10 or more days clean...why on earth would u tell someone to get on sub right now? she is trying to stop taking narcotics and has done so...why would she want to start taking a more powerful narcotic than she was on all this time?  I reallly am glad mego is educated enuf not to take heed to ur post...sub may be great for u if u r not ready to be off of drugs//sub is good for those who have tried very hard to quit and just can not without a maintenence drug/narcotic like sub or methadone..these r needed for some//people at high doses of a drug or a strong drug like heroin..but have even seen them CT with success...sub/unless u stay on it for life/will have wds that last al long time like methadone when u decide to get off of it..why would she want to get back on the merry go round when she has made it thus far....working on urself keeps u clean..not sub...sub can help u stay off the streets while u do the work...and can help u skip wds from ur old doc...but sub becomes a new doc for people if they are not careful...be sure u know ur addictionology before recommending things to people that can get them into deep doo doo

[mego579]

no suboxone - its jsut as addictive and difficult to WD from :(
have you ever tried to stop taking it?
im at 2 weeks and 2 days and i can walk
theres no reason at this point to take WD meds cuz the WD are almost over...

ugh i think i ate 1/2 a pizza last night
ughhhh stomach