Yes she was pregnant by this guy but miscarried. Maybe that in itself is some kind of sign! I'm trying to keep my chin up, it is just so hard to see her every two weeks knowing where is going when she leaves, to another man!! It would be so much better for me to move, but I just can't do that to the children. Meanwhile, must get dressed for church. Take care all and God bless!!
I kind of figured the kids were yours but didn't you say she was also now pregnant by this other guy? if not, please forgive me...i must have read wrong...i know how you feel about her being a full time mom and leaving...but like i said...she really does not sound as though she is in her right mind...whoc could be to leave her kids///Hopefully my friend she will turn around....and realize what she is doing....hats off to you....love to all cin
For the recored, the children are mine, just the fact that she could just go from full-time mom to every two weeks is just beyond me. I love her and hope that she comes around. Not only for me but for the kids. Maybe she will see that what I did was what I thought was the best thing for the family, instead of ":stabbingh her in the back".
after treatment we usually (if we take their advice) attend 12 step meetings 90 meetings in 90 days....we meet people that we share alot with, people who share with us...we have addiction in common..this causes us to feel this connection...and unfortunately those we love are feeling "left out" because even though they lived through our addiction with us, put up with our ****, lying etc...they still feel they are not part of our recovery because of our "new found friends" sometimes they are jealous of our sponsors, or we may meet a person of the opposite sex we bond with..talk with.. we are always sharing or listening to other people, on the phone, at meetings etc....this is not an uncommon thing to have happen after rehab....that rehab high....and the ones we love are left in the dust....she is probably unsure of herself...what she is feeling....probably more confused than you even think she is....like i said by no means am I defending her infidelity...i have my own personal issue with infidelity not in my marriage but one very close to me....I have my own set of morals and values as we all do and here on this forum is not the place to share my feeling on that nor judge anyone because of that....i can only tell you what happens in early recovery,from experience....I went through all the feelings...luckily I was not married...,,,the rehab romance, the rehab high and in alot of cases the ending of a marriage,,,something that is always very very sad..especially when the decision is really one sided,,,where on person still very much loves the other and then of course the children.....that is why alanon or naranon may be cood for you give her time....obviously you would be willing to take her back,,raise her child even though it is not yours....what a good man you must be,,,,and you my friend have definately earned a spot in heaven....do what you need to do so you can be ok...she is going to do what she wants to do...hang in there and keep coming back we are here for you Love to all cin
I have to agree with Cindi and Wiz. My former boyfriend of over 5 years was an addict over the past 2 years. He lived with my two small boys and myself. During his addiction to oxy's and now methadone life with him became sheer hell. He left us almost 3 months ago, said he couldn't take it or me anymore. We, the ones who love them, become people we don't like. We start obsessing about the addict, what they're doing, with who, are they using. Last year he went into detox, I really thought he would stay clean, didn't happen. He lied stole, everything to keep me in the dark. Like Cindi said, maybe they're together as an excuse to abuse. Most addicts don't make it the first of several attempts. I know from experience that an addict loves the drug more than us. As Wiz said, they can not show or feel love while abusing. Get some information about endorphines, neurotransmitters, dopamine levels. Get to an Al-anon meeting, this will help you understand, and don't beat yourself up....You did not do this to her, or give her an excuse to do what she did to you. It's not your fault. I have to go, but I will return later and will respond if you like....everyone here will help you.....Love Susan Lea
Thanks cindi, my guess is that she has just forgotten what it was like to me happily married. We had a rough couple of year due to the drugs. It just staggered me as to how quickly she bonded with someone else. I guess that is the evidence that gives your insight great merit. I suppose that when the "fog" lifts she will see what she left behind. Thanks for your insight and please keep sending any info you can. The more I understand, regardless the circumstances, the easier it seems. The hardest part is having no idea why she is doing what she has done!