Please. Please help me.

[Mommica80]

I've been on prescription meds for about 6 months now.  I had spinal fusion surgery 3 months ago; for the 3 months prior I was on Percocet, then while in the hospital I was on it as well.  Afterwords they put me on oxycodone; from that I was switched to loritab 10, then percocet again, then back to loritab but this time 5.  It was so bad I went through 90 percocet in a week.  My doctor though would fill my request for more pills every week for the last 3 months; then they figured out what was going on and now refuse to fill it again.  I did tell them I knew I had a problem, and that I was tapering myself, but true to being an addict I took the last 40 in 4 days and am now out and feel like I'm going crazy.  I can't call my doc and ask for more, I don't want to continue this cycle, but I'm absolutely miserable.  I managed to hide it from my husband this whole time, the fact that it was a problem.  But I'm now sick, running a fever, and feel like a huge loser.  What on earth can I do?  I have 2 kids and need to stop this, I know.  How long can I expect to feel this way?  Please help me.

[daynaturk]

Hello everyone I have been reading you guys post for days! I have been taking loritab 10 for years I had a hysterectomy 5 weeks ago and o boy I got lots of pills! Only problem they didn't last no time. My husband is having back surgery in a month so he takes them too. I went my first 48 hours with no loritab and thought "I can do this" then I took 1 today. I am so mad at myself and to top it off my husband doesn't believe I went 2 days without any.

[Mommica80]

They were 10 mg percs...

[Mommica80]

I told my husband and it wasn't so bad.  I'm waiting on a call back from my neurosurgeon about getting some Valium for the next week.  We'll see if that flies or not.  Read up on the Thomas Recipe and the Valium could be the only hangup.  I'm hoping they'll be willing to work with me, we'll see.  :)

[worried878]

90 5 mgs percs...not an horrendous dose and do-able ct or with a taper //most in order to taper have to hand over the pils to a trusted friend or spouse etc//but even then u can cheat//i tried tapering and i just ended up doing the ct thing..4 days of feeling a bit flu-like..runs, mild headache, a bit of nausea and anxiety///but mostly fatigue for me//this loss of motivation followed me for a few months..the thomas recipe and exercise helped me get up off the couch..i was working 5 days a week//but that was it//my nrg was gone and it was the hardest part for me to bear and what almost caused me to relapse/led a busy life///taught yoga/was a gym rat.....i re-read the recipe and upped my aminos to the recommended doses..tyrosine helped me the most as far as nrg//exercise did as well..after 10 min on the treadmill i felt normal..and it would last for hours after..just hard to find the motivation to do it

all i can add is hat u need support...finding a source of aftercare can help lots....r u sure ur hubby would freak if u told him the truth?

[cubsmom]

I'm doing the same thing you are right now. I went 16 days with no hydro and then stopped my tramadol yesterday. The worst part is my moodswings and yelling at my kids. I have 2 in school and 2 at home. I went to my family doc today to get something for anxiety bc I can't yell at my kids like this all. Day. I started the thomas recipe yesterday and that is working wonders! You can do it. At least yopu have all day with the kids in school. Consider that a blessing!

[BIKERDAD1963]

The drug problem is not your fault totally. We need the meds to get thru the pain. The body gets addicted before we do. We just dont no when to say enough is enough. By the time we do we are takeing so much that it seems impossable to stop. I am glad you told your husband, he needs to no so he can understand what is going to happen. I hope there is someone who can help you out with the kids . You will make it just hang in there. The good thing is that you have nothing to fall back on. You have no choice but to make it. Good luck and all of us here will get you thru it.

[troubleinohio]

glad you found us...and btw you can get through it...it is rougher when you have to do all that stuff during WDs, trust me I know..i have 2 very active young boys. I went through all that too during WD's some of the time (getting up for school, showered, fed, lunches packed etc ) and still have youngest at home one more year.  Its very hard to take care of the kids when in the throes and agony of WD but its possible. Just not a lot of fun, lol. I know you can do it though. Hang in there, the WDs, though HELLL, are only temporary! You will be so glad you did this for yourself, your kids and husband!

[Mommica80]

It is my neurosurgeon that stopped the refills, yes.  And I took your advice; I told my husband.  He wasn't at all surprised, and of course supportive.  I still feel miserable and like a failure, and depressed about what I've become.  But I'm going to make it.  I have to, for my kids, my husband, but most importantly, myself.  I'm going to keep myself busy and work through this.  

[Mommica80]

Unfortunately my husband is military (well, unfortunately in this instance) and can't get time off of work.  It's up to me to get the kids ready for school, to school, pick them up, and take care of them until he gets home.  And having a military doc, they don't do ANYTHING for withdrawal other than tell you to get the OCT stuff to help lessen the side effects.  (I have a friend who went through the same thing who told me about that.)  I'm just going to tough it out (other than the stuff to help the symptoms).  I do think I'm going to tell my husband tonight though.  I just can't stand the thought of the look of disappointment in his eyes.

[leeisgettingclean]

Well a bad person no you should not, but a drug addict yes you should, But the great thing about this site is we are all here for one reason. Now your w/d prob not even starting yet. flu is good.

[BIKERDAD1963]

Welcome to my life. I had double fusion 6 years ago. Been on norco and oxycontin since. Lucky for me i have a wonderful Pain Management doctor. I need the meds for the pain but they just stop working and then I have to take more and more and so on. Meds were ruinning my life and marriage. I decided to get of the meds a deal with the pain in other ways. My doc went over different methods and we picked one together. Once I am off the meds we will figure out another method to treat the pain. Is this your surgeon that stopped the refills? I would suggest you go to your family doctor and explain and get honest. The doctors are there to help (most the time anyways) They can get you on a taper program. Do you need the meds for pain or is it strictly recreational? People dont always think of going to there doc with this kind of problem but it should be the first thing they do. First 3 - 4 days are the worst. Dont recommend hiding it from your hubby, he is there to help you. My wife is taking time of work so she can take care of everything including the kids when I go thru it thursday. You need his help because you cant deal with the kids while detoxing let alone everything else a wife does.

[Mommica80]

This morning.  And I do want to be done; I have to be around for my kids, be sober for them, and I don't like who the drug turned me in to.  I'm not a happy person anymore, and that's all I want, is to be happy again and not feel like a junkie.  I think I will use the flu as my excuse, and when I'm hurting take baths and use my tems unit.  Yay for those things!  I also have lidocaine patches...I just feel like a bad person.  I know I shouldn't...

[leeisgettingclean]

when did you take your last dose? i hear w/d last 5-7 days(atleast the worst of em) You just have to bear it, its like a severe flu, so use that as your excuse. You are going to have to do this at some point in your life, go ahead and make it now.