Help!! 2nd Day CT from tramadol

[zoezsweet]

I am feeling horrid!  Saturday my hubby flushed the last 40 tramadol pills I was using to taper.  He dosen't even know how I would feel and he doesn't care.  I was taking about 6 a day for AS and FM pain. My insurance ran out and this was the last bottle of pills my rhumy doc was giving me. So I knew what was coming and I knew I had to taper off so I could avoid these withdrawls.  About a year and a half ago I had been buying tramadol off the internet and was taking 180 pills in about 3 1/2 weeks. I've had issues with all narcotics...OC, vics, percs and now I was perscribed the trams from the doc and it really pissed my hubby off, he said they changed who I was and how I acted. But I don't think they did. I just don't know what to do.  I know the tramadol was causing me to lose weight also. I lost 15lbs in the last 5 months and am too skinny.  Has anyone else ever had the side affect from it that caused you to lose your appetite? Any suggestions on how to make it thru the day at work would be great.  Sorry if this post is all over but my brain is definatly not working today.  All I have to help is ibprophen, some zanaflex, and i got some neurontin from my friend. I also have some crappy codine/caffine/acep--canada stuff that kills my gut and it really doesn't help witht the w/d's. I hate pills.  It's my dad's fualt i started taking them in the first place. He get's OC and then asks if i want some cause my back hurts.  Sorry to ramble more any help would be greatly appriciated. i won't be back on the site until tomorrow morning at work. my hubby doesn't know I post here. thanks, zoe

[nursegirl6572]

A few things stuck out in your post....you seem to be obtaining different meds from all kinds of sources....friends, internet, etc....be VERY careful.  It is quite dangerous to just start popping pills that weren't prescribed for you, and as for the internet....you may not even be getting what you thought you were.  

Unfortunately...there is no "magic" pill that is going to make the w/d's go away (ie Neurontin, etc)...there are things you can do to REDUCE the symptoms...but you DO have a rough road ahead of you.  Your hubby flushing the pills was him trying to help...so don't be too hard on him.

The best thing you can do is discuss all of this with your doc....maybe they can help you during the withdrawal period, and if something is needed...they can prescribe it for you the RIGHT way, ya know?

Best of luck to you...I've heard that Ultram w/d's are pretty rouogh...but you've got loads of support and info here....please use that to help you through!

[zoezsweet]

Thank you for the advice.  Your right about it not being my dads fault, he didn't force me to take them but rather introduced me to the pills. I'm actually feeling much better today and will get the thomas recipe and amino acid protocol.  I know this is for the best but it's just so difficult when the darn pills are in your mind. I agree with some other posts that I read that the mental addition is the worst.  -zoe

[wannabefree330]

Sorry to hear you are sick.  It was maybe the best that your H flushed the remaining pills.  Whatever the circumstance, you are now forced into stopping.  Get the vitamins and ingredients on the Thomas recipe and amino acid protocol.  They will help with alot of your symptoms.  Won't completely take it away, but will help some.  Your husbands comment about how they changed you is probably true.  We don't know what kind of people we become when we are totally addicted.  

One thing that you said really concerns me.  You said it's your dad's fault you started taking the pills.  You have noone to blame but yourself for that.  You need to recognize that nobody forced you to take them, nobody forced you to continue either.  Taking responsibility for our actions is a HUGE part of recovery.

Stay strong, and keep moving ahead.  Just a few more days you'll start feeling better.