How do you find the strength?

[Timb3r]

How do all of you find the strength to stop abusing opiates and to completly stop. It's always so easy when I'm on them to say I can do this and I just tried a taper down but fell off my plan and now I'm back up to 8 norcs a day wanting more fighting not to take more and telling my self I'll do less tommorrow.

[oompah54]

You will know when you just can't live like this anymore . . . The fact that you are on this forum is a good sign.

These pills will take over your life.  Wake up in the morning and grab the pills, watch the clock to see how long it is before you can safely???? take more, count them every day because you know you are going to run out before the new script, buy them off the street with your grocery money.  At first they gave you more energy and made you feel more social.  At the end they have you physically and mentally a wreck and you don't want to be bothered with anyone or anything.  

You can take back your life.  Getting and staying clean is a journey.  You just have to take that first step.

Wishing you peace and strength . . . . Deb  

[merrymaria]

hello....i just got sick of the chase...sick of not feeling nothing after spending all my hard earned bucks on something that just makes me feel normal....crazy...i tried to taper in march of 08....nope didn t work.  our brains think we can t live without these little @#$%$ but we CAN....i wanted to be sober more than anything...just like everyone else...i did the cold turkey in july 08 and here i am over 600 days later...you need lots of support and some type of after care....wds are not fun but we get through them....i was more scared to go through wds than the wds were....fear of what is going to happen...but by day 5 you feel pretty much human....we can all do this...you just have to really want this or it won t work...life is good straight....i m glad i can wake up every day and not worry about stupid pills...good luck to you...maria :)

[dominosarah]

After abusing alcohol and drugs for over 30 yrs it was either i live or i die and death was right around the corner for me.  Getting clean hasnt been painless.  I have faced many of my demons and the pain is far less than it was from using everyday.  You will know when you have had enough.  You will move mountains to protect your clean time and do whatever it takes.........sara

[kajama]

When you just have enough of watching your life happening in front of you and not remembering it the next day was enough for me. My children missing field trips cause I forgot to sign papers, my husband working all day and coming home to me still sleeping, just so much happening that I couldn't believe I did. Driving my children while drugged. I got to the point enough was enough and sought out help. Now living my life for my family is something I cherish and would never give back. Everyone has there own inner strenght and you'll know when you get it. Hey you came to this website so that mean something.  Hope the best for you!!!!! Let us know how you are doing

[addicted32]

sometimes u run out early and the choice is made for already,    I had to sign a narotic agreement so when im out i can;t get any from another dr and believe me i tried because i couldn't take it and i still can;t take it.  What was hillarious is i had a happy almost 3 months ago my pregnancy wt was 192.  I was 150 before baby.  I hate to say this but when u get off of pills ur body does too.  When I went to the dr to try to get more all she kept telling me was how good i looked after having a baby.  My wt today 158.  I just looked at her a had afake smile thinking you have no idea whats really going.  So because i lied i have to have a mri of my brain and was given imitrix and maxsalt they wouldn't give me a narcotic.  So it was a waste of my addictted mind to get something to help with withdrawls so im going at it alone with ambien and ensure and a cig.  The point is its the drugs that dropped my weight not my extensive exercise class.Its that my drugs are gone now.  And I can't eat.

[avisg]

I think for many its the fear of the unknown and the fear of WD that makes it so hard to do and easier to put off .You do get to a point when the desire to get clean becomes bigger then your desire to use .You will get there.

[cleanmom]

Hi,

For me, i never really did feel like i had the strength or enough of it. I just gave it my best shot and kept pushing through minute by minute, hour by hour. I think we have more in us than we think. And once you really get going with it and start hitting your recovery program hard you just start building on that strength little by little.

I knew it was what i needed to do, not really what i wanted to do. So, i didnt really seem to have to want it as much as i knew i needed it. And when you reach out and get enough support and start working a solid program of recovery, feeling like you have to want it enough doesnt matter as much.

I hope that made sense to you. This is how it worked for me and it can for you too. We can help you if you would like. Keep posting, we are here for you.........


Jacky

[acalicutie]

I'm currently at 12-17 Norcos a day and want off so badly, but I'm so scared.  I know exactly how you feel.

Maybe you and I could find the strength together.  I desperately need help.

KS

[all4mygrlz]

The same thing happens to me all of the time. I'm watching my life go by while I get high. I guess you have to really want it, at least that's what I've been told. Are you a phan timb3r?