Thank you gnarly, I don't know you but it's easy to tell you have a great heart. I'm sorry you went through that. I can imagine you must have felt then like I do now..kinda like your insides are melting. I'm in bit better shape right now. Not having any sleep last night and worrying myself literally sick I was really messed up all day. Tommorow I'm going to go to the sub doctor and fess up. I'm scared of the outcome of course but facing it and dealing with it will be easier then sitting here in the state I've been in, a nervous puking wreck. I have anxiety really bad and this has brought on some severe episodes. High stress situations cause me to get literally sick. Of course I have only myself to thank for my stress right now but I do believe good will come of it--I'll finally get off this crap. I just hope I don't get into too much trouble. Thank you for sharing your story with me gnarly. That must have been hell to go through not to mention the shame you feel having to face the doctors. When they asked you in the er "lets call your doc and see what he says" did you fess up then or did you wait to talk to him? Anyways I really appreciate the support here. I keep telling myself this is a blessing in disguise. I do wonder though how it is that people can find themselves again after an opiate addiction, how they can ever feel "normal" again. Lord knows I've never been "normal" but I remember a time where my life didn't revolve around pills. I miss those days!! I want them back!
I feel for you..These pills take away everything..Even here in America all states have differing laws..Mine would involve the police..Worst case scenario..but if you're up front..they will try to get you help and detox..then cut you off for good...which is what usually happens...Your Sub Dr. should understand addiction...it's up to you if you're going to be honest...believe me..they've heard it all before and know when someone really wants to stop and change their life around..Do you really? Not just because you got caught...This could be a blessing in disguise...Even though I never abused my pain meds and took them as prescribed I knew something was up..because around the time for the next dosage I would be shaking and irritable and feeling like Hell if I was out and didn't have my meds to take...That scared me...into never going for more...plus I would watch a TV show called INTERVENTION..and that scared the cr@p out of me..People becoming addicted because of an accident or injury..I see how easily that could happen..My last visit to the Pain Center they wanted to UP my dose of Fentanyl...I was like where does this end!?!...I took the script and tore it up..I handed them my bottle of Morphine and the script for that for them to dispose of...I know they want to help...but I do not want to become a Zombie...I know you're scared..it will be alright..I'm on your side..I would never make judgements..He who casts the first stone....I wish the best for you in quitting and staying quit...Anj
hi no cops got involvoved but I was given a certatfied leter from both doctors saying that they could no longer be my doctor and if there where to be a next time with any doctorors that the cops would be involved ...I guess I was lucky I was giving a reprieve...I do regreat it though the first doctor was one that believed in chiropractic adjustments and would alway aline me never found another doctor that did that I miss his deminor and his smile to this day....hope all goes well for you....google sub laws in canada it will probably give you a wealth of info and go in for that visit dont run ti will only make it worst.....we all make mistakes we regret ....God is a loving God that forgives
go to him and get this off your chest he can do amazing things.........Gnarly
HI!
ok im froma canada too, and yea this happens alot with ppl going to diff doctors, cuz they dont look to hard into it, so take a deep breath its gona be ok, im just about 2 months clean from them, and i didnt doctor shop but if i ran out to soo i would go to urgent care cuz they always give you some, but i know ppl who doctor shop and havnt ever got cought, so heres what you should do, you wanna get off them right? well go tell your sub doctor all of this, even tak your computer or print out of your first post here and say this is hard for me to say cuz im scarred but here read this, he will see you mean buisness! you wanna get clean so do it! go tell him'her and and ask for help, say its gotten this bad and you dont want it to get ne worse, it will be ok, if you come clean and wanna get clean then the worst he can do is take you off the program well then, come to get that when we get there, but you will not be in big troubble or n e thing in box me if you wanna talk
Can someone please tell me...can the police get involved over this? Or is it more likely I will just end up cut off?? Please tell me what happened when you got caught gnarly and sudie. I have been throwing up all day, my nerves are a mess. I know I brought it all on myself but please. I need to know what I'm looking at in terms of consequences here.
I've been trying to get up the guts all day to call my sub doctor. I know I have to but man, this is the hardest call I've ever had to make. And yeah, a blessing in disguise is right. What I'm really worried about though is can they involve the police? Does anyone know the canadian laws regarding this? The only thing that makes me think I might not get in trouble with the law is that I was seeing two different doctors yes, but for two different prescriptions. Still, I'm really worried about that. Gnarly, did they involve the police when you got caught? Sudie same question..I'm really scared about that. I have never gotten oxys from 2 different doctors at the same time but getting suboxone and oxy from two different doctors is obviously not allowed. I would understand if the sub doc threw me out of his practice. I would deserve it...and yes, a blessing in disguise really. Of course I have no intention of going back to the oxy doctor at all ever again. How I wish I was not so foolish to pull this stunt but if I've learned anything from it it's that enough is enough. I might even make some calls and go to a detox for a week. They have some in my area. I have never been so willling in my life to put an end to this now. Clearly the subs aren't the answer. And it goes without saying the oxys aren't either. I feel like I've truly hit rock bottom here. Nowhere left to go but up. I don't want to live like this anymore. I'm just so afraid if I call the sub doctor and tell him that he will lose it on me and involve the police..that's my biggest fear right now.