i relapsed again

[Tank78]

Its been a couple monthsd since my last post and I was doing great feeling great and then one night I took a couple and it just kept going from there, I'm currently on day 2 yet again of not taking any and I tried to tell myself that I woukld not bring into the new year and I'm struggling bad ecspeacially knowing the pills are just a phone call away, I deleted the number from my phone but its still in my mind and I have dialed it prob a hundred times today but hung up after one ring , I'm really trying to hold off but it keeps getting harder and harder by the min!!! Any suggestions????

[katmandu516]

Hey Tank-If your Dr. says it's ok to take the 0.25 of the Xanax to take the edge off, I would do it. It will help you not make that phone call!!!! Good luck brother.

[katmandu516]

I really love that saying..Thanks you for sharing....
Kat

[ricart70]

Dang Tank !!  We can't just take a couple buddy.   They don't make pills big enough for us to do that.  Hang in there buddy and get back on the horse. Rooting for you my friend

[atthebeach]

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different
results.
Time to do things differently.

[ariley13]

Try to stay as busy as possible to distract yourself. Post a little on here, maybe even try to help some other people who are new and need advice. You've been through this before and now the drill. It might take your mind off of using and it's always good to give back. Exercise also helps a lot with the anxiety and cravings. Just do anything you have to do except use!

[Tank78]

Thank you very much, this urge is just rediculous right now

[ariley13]

You have a fantastic attitude and it sounds like you have your priorities straight and know what needs to be done. You are going to make this the time that sticks! You can do this!! Keep fighting and moving forward. I hope you start to feel better very soon.

[Tank78]

I'm just fighting this urge it is so strong I'm driving myself crazy right now trying to relax and nothing is working

[Tank78]

I'm going to try my best yet again, I basically have to do everything differently from before bc it didn't work last time so now I'm at square one again, I guess one good thing is this is day 2 and tomorrow will be day 3 so my withdrawls should be getting over the worst part in another day or two

[dominosarah]

You walk in with your head held high as you deserve to start living again~

[ariley13]

That's great that you found a group to attend. You have to find a way to cut those sources too. That will get you every single time if you don't.

[Tank78]

Idk I thought I was good and yea I def wasn't I found a narcotics group that I'm going to attend tomorrow but I'm feeling really depressed not sorry for myself at all bc I keep doing this to myself over and over again

[ariley13]

Hi there and welcome back. It's good to see you posting again. You've been here is this situation on several occasions before. I'm glad you haven't given up trying to quit, but what you've tried in the past isn't working. What are you going to do differently this time to ensure it sticks?

[dominosarah]

Are you still trying to do this by yourself??  What about some aftercare?