Starting to withdraw from 100mg hydro a day

[Chrs32]

I'm a newbie to the whole forum thing so please bear with me :) I've been addicted to prescription pain pills for about 3 years now it started with 3-4 lortab 10's a day, a half at a time, and now I'm up to taking 8 at a time and that's just for maintenance And then 2 at bedtime just to keep from waking up in withdrawal. I've made it 14 days one time but the anxiety got the best of me and I started using again. Well today is hell all I've had is some gunk left over from a CWE I did the other day it was horrible and probably more Tylenol than anything. Anyways it all started when I got divorced about 3 years ago it sent me reeling because it seemed to come out of nowhere, she just told me one morning that she didn't think this was gonna work anymore and later I found out that she had met one of her old boyfriends on myspace and decided to throw away the 8 years we had together and it almost killed me I had taken hydros/Oxys a few times in the past and I developed this "screw it" attitude which now I know was stupid because now I have a new girl and a baby girl on the way and I have to stop this madness. I have so much to live for but the pills have taken over me and now I don't remember myself before the pills so I don't even know what I'm working toward. I know my habit isn't as bad as some I've seen on here but any support would be sincerely appreciated

[littlebit667]

Just try again if you can.  I know it is hard, I know it s u c k s and if you start saying I can't then you can't.  You have a lot of reasons to do this, but the biggest one if for yourself.  you are worth it and therefore your family is.  Keep coming here it does help.  It really helped me. Take care.

[lostinthought38]

i'm sorry you relapsed...dont be so hard on yourself...things happen..YOU CAN DO THIS...i havent posted in a while either and tomorrow will be 1 week without any opiates...and i feel great actually...i have my moments...i broke down at work, cried and cried but i told myself i have to do this and i stuck to it...its all mind set chris...i do really think you were on them worse than what i was just from reading your posts..but trust in yourself...the first 72hrs was bad but it seemed to me it got better...i still have the depression but this day in age who doesnt...i went to my doctor yesterday and spilled the beans...many of my friends thought it was a bad idea cuz they said it would be in my file i was an addict but i am so serious about being done with this i told the dr everything..so now i wont be able to get anything if ever needed as i dont want to anyway...god forbid something happens to me (accident) and i only receive while in hosp well so be it...im tired of this life style..i told my dr how much i was taking and he told me the dizziness should be gone by wed or so...today...no dizziness...i am lazy, i have no energy and thats ok...dr said it could take up to 2 months to get that back..he said the brains receptors are still telling my body hey you need those opiates to move but i dont have them in my body so in time my brain will start doing what its supposed to and i will produce the energy again...i totally understand what you are going through..i almost relapsed to when i got so sick but i told myself NOPE..and now i feel much better and within the next few weeks i should be even better...PLEASE TRY TO DO IT AGAIN...dont let these stupid drugs run your life and possibly ruin it...i have insurance to pay for rehab but i chose to do it home cuz im sure theres still some to pay...and i'm like you..i dont have much money...my husband and i work our ***** off and still cant get ahead to save ourselves...i counted down every hour...when i got to hr 96 i knew i was passed the worse of it..you can do it...trust in urself and not to sound cheesy ..pray...honestly..i dont go to church nor pray...(nothing against it , i believe , i just dont worship for reasons) but when i was going through it i honestly prayed to god to help me get thru it the sickness and i done it...not sure if it was him or my willpower, maybe alittle bit of both..well yeah and valium...lol...but dr told me no more xanax and i stopped those and he said taper off the valium...i took 1 5mg today...and he told me take 3 5mg today and then break in half 3x tomorrow and then be done...nope...i'll just take one today and be finished...good luck chris...do it for yourself first...i know you said u have a baby on the way but you have to do it for you...baby doesnt know about your addiction...you do...some might think thats out of line to say but its true...kicking the habit has to be for yourself first..your health..the chances of u over dosing and not being around for your gf and baby...in this case...think about yourself first..kick it before baby comes...YOU CAN DO IT..need anyone to talk to...i'm here...i surely can relate in many ways...theres oxys all through my family..thankfully i never really got into those...

[lostinthought38]

OMG i cant thank you enough for posting the thomas recipe...it helped me through it all...i couldnt believe it...i was still sick but i know it would have been MUCh worse without this recipe..i'm 1 week clean and feel very good...tired and no energy but i have the mind set of kicking this and i have no intension of ever doing it again...seems like its never enough..i could pop and pop and pop and i still wanted  MORE...thanks again for the posting the recipe...you sure the hell helped me...i told my dr about it yesterday and hes looking it up..he found it very interesting...thanks again...

[Chrs32]

Well I decided to get back on the wagon I haven't had anything since 11:00 am yesterday and then that was only 40 mg (half my normal dose) it's not that bad I just hate these hot/cold flashes and sweaty hands and feet I don't feel nauseated at all which is good. No appetite but that will come I'm just taking it hour by hour and I know it's got to get better eventually the only way it won't is if I don't stop thanks Lostinthought I really appreciate the encouragement and congrats on a week I know you can do it and so can I :) keep me updated

[lostinthought38]

well i'm 11 days clean today..i feel pretty good other than the yawning is coming back and no energy but i'm just counting down the days until my energy level is back to normal..hopefully soon cuz i have no desire to go anywhere or do anything...unfortunately work is NOT an option so that i have to do...depression is better today...yesterday was horrible...other than that i feel fine...just tired all the time and to be totally honest i dont really think about pills as often as i thought especially being my husband still takes them...i just asked him to keep them out of the house as he has so far but 1 time and i was pretty pissed at him..good luck chris ...try your best to stay with it because eventually you will feel better...trust me...i'm 11 days and i didnt think id ever feel better...i was pretty confident on the 5th day that i could do it..so far so good and i know you can also...keep in touch

[Chrs32]

Well it's day 12 sorry I haven't posted lately I've just been forcing myself to stay busy an believe me with only a month left until my baby girl is here there is plenty to do hehe I'm still having some light physical stuff like yawns and rapid fire sneezing and of course I still get cravings but I can tell everyday is getting better. I got back on my antidepressant and it should start working in the next week or two. They put me on zoloft and klonopin for my anxiety attacks but I'm being super careful to only take the klonopin when I absolutely need it. I tried to go to a NA meeting but they were just a little too preachy for me so I'm just gonna use this as my online NA haha thanks again to everyone who has sent love and support I really couldn't have got this far without you guys. I hope everyone who is doing this with me is staying strong and clean :) one love...chris