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Still getting better.....
Today is Day 8 for me. I'm actually feeling a lot better and can see the difference in the past week. My problem now is the restless ARM and some anxiety. I've tried Icee Hot, heating pad, different sleep positions and rooms, etc. Just can't figure out what to do and how long this is going to last! It's driving me crazy!! I had a really stressful day yesterday due to some things not related to what I've been talking about for the past 8 days. I wasn't able to sleep at all. I can't fall asleep before 2:30am no matter what. It's always at least that late! (I use to struggle to stay away til 9:30). I can't wait til my sleeping gets back on track. I was doing good over teh weekend but when I dont fall asleep til 2:30 and have to get my daughter up at 6:00... just doesnt cut it!
Anyway, I had a really rough day yesterday. Lots of cravings, etc. I'm really hoping today will be better! I need more sleep, and this restless arm syndrome to go away! Today WILL be better!!!
Anyway, I had a really rough day yesterday. Lots of cravings, etc. I'm really hoping today will be better! I need more sleep, and this restless arm syndrome to go away! Today WILL be better!!!
Today is day 12. I'm doing great! My back still bothers me, but overall... i wouldn't say I'm miserable anymore. I have BLAH moments...buts thats expected. At what point should I back off the tylenol? I dont wanna take too much...but i need to still take enough that i'm not looking for "devil" pills. ya know?
I would LOOOVE to get in a deep sleep too. I can't wait to see how late I can sleep tomorrow since I dont have to work. By the end of my day working I'm exhausted! But if I sat here at home, I'd be miserable all day.. Gotta keep moving!
Thank you Dav, I hope I'm positive in someone else's eyes. I often doubt myself! :/ But I know I"m getting there!
It feels so good to laugh and taste things again. It feels so good to have my life back. Now, I guess I need to get off the tylenol. lol
Anyway.... i gotta run exchange a dress that's too big. :) Keep moving! Love you all! see ya in a couple of hours!
I would LOOOVE to get in a deep sleep too. I can't wait to see how late I can sleep tomorrow since I dont have to work. By the end of my day working I'm exhausted! But if I sat here at home, I'd be miserable all day.. Gotta keep moving!
Thank you Dav, I hope I'm positive in someone else's eyes. I often doubt myself! :/ But I know I"m getting there!
It feels so good to laugh and taste things again. It feels so good to have my life back. Now, I guess I need to get off the tylenol. lol
Anyway.... i gotta run exchange a dress that's too big. :) Keep moving! Love you all! see ya in a couple of hours!
Hi Mamaamw,,and how are we doing? Things doing ok getting thru the school hours your putting in? And God, you sound so good in your post above. The light at the end of the tunnel has finally revealed itself in a brighter fashion for you I assume? Its a great feeling isn't it..Like, "they said it would get better and I'll be darned! It is!"
I really am so happy for you..Still have a little ways to go, going to continue to swing some, but they get further and farther apart..Way to go girl..Your moving so fast I'm losing track of days! Keep that great spirit of yours alive. Truly am proud of you..
On your back, I still have issues with mine as well, but found a good hot 10 minute shower focusing on the area bothering you the most does help alot..Then lay down, maybe a nice bowl of my favorite soup and put on a heart waring movie (if possible. Try to time it when your not under demand for dinner etc..A window of deserved down time..Sounds like you have your husband kinda stunned as to your attitude change.In a very good way... Keep up the good work :) Dav
I really am so happy for you..Still have a little ways to go, going to continue to swing some, but they get further and farther apart..Way to go girl..Your moving so fast I'm losing track of days! Keep that great spirit of yours alive. Truly am proud of you..
On your back, I still have issues with mine as well, but found a good hot 10 minute shower focusing on the area bothering you the most does help alot..Then lay down, maybe a nice bowl of my favorite soup and put on a heart waring movie (if possible. Try to time it when your not under demand for dinner etc..A window of deserved down time..Sounds like you have your husband kinda stunned as to your attitude change.In a very good way... Keep up the good work :) Dav
You go gurl !
I read your story. What specifically would you like help with? I will try to help you.
You are really way better than me at the day you are on.I couldn't even function well enough to register for this forum until right around day 14 or somewhere in there.The energy will come back as the sleep gets better.I know exactly what my energy discrepancy is because I am a runner and still at day 33 it is heartbreaking how little energy I have.I was taking alot higher amount and strength than you though.I do have more than 14 days ago though.I am glad you are **** so well that is really great.You are very tough.GREAT JOB!
11 days now! :) hehehe....
I DO understand when you say you're starting to feel yourself again. I actually laughed for the first time with my daughter in about 2 years! I didn't realize how I wasn't laughing anymore! I've been playful with my husband again...it got to the point where I couldnt stand to hardly be around him! Its almost as if I feel YOUNGer again... or even almost like I'm drunk or something! LOL... its awesome knowing its a good C*L*E*A*N laugh! A TRUE laugh! I AM very proud of myself! Yesterday was a horrible day for me. I was miserable all day. My body ached and I just felt like crap. I still dont feel well today. My back is killing me and I have zero energy. I've been taking all my supplements and tylenol too... i cant take advil....so its just tylenol. I've still been taking hot showers just before bedtime along with Sleepytime Tea (HOLY MOLY! That stuff ROCKS! Puts me to sleep within 10 min). I actually slept from 10:45 last night til 6am this morning. I was SOOOOO ill when the clock went off! I wanted to keep sleeping. It's not like my OLD sleep by any means...but to be able to lay still for 7 hours and be in somewhat of a relaxed state, thats BIG! The arm thing has settled down again today. I've realized that as soon as I get in bed, go ahead and put that heating pad in my armpit whether its acting up or not. Hey....if it works, it works! LOL...even if it IS in my head. That's all this crap is anyway...just mind games. I can play games too!
@Wishfulthinking- dont worry about hijacking my post. lol... whatever it takes to help you! I have to be honest... I haven't been able to go back and reread any of my post, nor have I been strong enough to help others by giving advice. As soon as I feel I am able, I'm gonna be all over it! I've thought about it... I'd love to be a substance abuse counselor! I feel that there is ALWAYS something good come out of everything...even if its a period of your life you feel like you're dying. SOMETHING good has come out of this for me or someone else. I've had so many people say I'm an inspiration or that my posts may have saved their lives. I've NEVER had anyone tell me that. Do you know what that does for you when you feel so worthless?!?! This is honestly, the best group in the world! I seriously wouldn't be here if it weren't for Tram, Gnarly, and many others here! Even though I'm 11 days clean, I STILL need them! They know that and are there for me! I can't wait til I can be there for someone else!
Now.... what do you guys mean when you say AFTERCARE? Keep in mind, im in this alone! NO ONE knows except for the people on this page. I can't go visit some clinic or a doctor or support group. The only thing I can do is online, privately.
Now..my only complaint is that my back is still hurting (never has hurt before all this!).... and also fatigue. I know it'll all go away soon...and things are getting much better! I'm just trying to get past these 2 things.... right now.
I DO understand when you say you're starting to feel yourself again. I actually laughed for the first time with my daughter in about 2 years! I didn't realize how I wasn't laughing anymore! I've been playful with my husband again...it got to the point where I couldnt stand to hardly be around him! Its almost as if I feel YOUNGer again... or even almost like I'm drunk or something! LOL... its awesome knowing its a good C*L*E*A*N laugh! A TRUE laugh! I AM very proud of myself! Yesterday was a horrible day for me. I was miserable all day. My body ached and I just felt like crap. I still dont feel well today. My back is killing me and I have zero energy. I've been taking all my supplements and tylenol too... i cant take advil....so its just tylenol. I've still been taking hot showers just before bedtime along with Sleepytime Tea (HOLY MOLY! That stuff ROCKS! Puts me to sleep within 10 min). I actually slept from 10:45 last night til 6am this morning. I was SOOOOO ill when the clock went off! I wanted to keep sleeping. It's not like my OLD sleep by any means...but to be able to lay still for 7 hours and be in somewhat of a relaxed state, thats BIG! The arm thing has settled down again today. I've realized that as soon as I get in bed, go ahead and put that heating pad in my armpit whether its acting up or not. Hey....if it works, it works! LOL...even if it IS in my head. That's all this crap is anyway...just mind games. I can play games too!
@Wishfulthinking- dont worry about hijacking my post. lol... whatever it takes to help you! I have to be honest... I haven't been able to go back and reread any of my post, nor have I been strong enough to help others by giving advice. As soon as I feel I am able, I'm gonna be all over it! I've thought about it... I'd love to be a substance abuse counselor! I feel that there is ALWAYS something good come out of everything...even if its a period of your life you feel like you're dying. SOMETHING good has come out of this for me or someone else. I've had so many people say I'm an inspiration or that my posts may have saved their lives. I've NEVER had anyone tell me that. Do you know what that does for you when you feel so worthless?!?! This is honestly, the best group in the world! I seriously wouldn't be here if it weren't for Tram, Gnarly, and many others here! Even though I'm 11 days clean, I STILL need them! They know that and are there for me! I can't wait til I can be there for someone else!
Now.... what do you guys mean when you say AFTERCARE? Keep in mind, im in this alone! NO ONE knows except for the people on this page. I can't go visit some clinic or a doctor or support group. The only thing I can do is online, privately.
Now..my only complaint is that my back is still hurting (never has hurt before all this!).... and also fatigue. I know it'll all go away soon...and things are getting much better! I'm just trying to get past these 2 things.... right now.
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