Welcome to the forum and congrats on those 8 days clean and also reaching out for support. Admitting to being an addict is a big step and it took me years of drugs and booze to finally admitting that.
Craving a pill for us is normal as crazy as that sounds, we are addicts and our disease want's to keep us sick, saying just one more time, but that is the lie of addiction. Your so early off them and the cravings are so tough, but keep talking, stay busy and don't let that craving build anymore. Please break off those contacts that are trying to sell you them, that is a major trigger. I am proud of you for posting this, cause that shows that deep down you don't want to use, but when those cravings hit, it's a battle. Take it one minute at a time and this too shall pass:) You have so much to look forward to now that your clean and it will get easier. Stay strong!!!
u need to get into some sort of aftercare. it was a matter of life or death for me. i cant tell u how grateful i am that i have my counselor. i have learned the tools i need to stay clean. i also learned how to deal with my triggers al il better and how to deal with the cravings. first off... u have to go thru ur phone and delete all contacts of people who use and people who u can get the oc's off of. its oxycontin right? that was my drug after the reg pills became no fun nemore. its powerful. i eneded up being able to do a whole oxycontin 80 mgs and still be going thru withdrawls. i was n bad shape. neways.... u have to change ur lifestyle and make some hard choices but n the long run they will pay off for ya. the energy things was tough for me but it got better as the days went by. try doing some excercising and get ur natural endorphins going on again. do positive things that will make u feel good about urself. keep ur mind busy. an idle mind is the devils playground.get nto an old hobbie u used to have. u will find that life has so much more offer u now that ur clean and sober. u dont need those pills to have a great and wonderful life. u have to feel good about urself now that ur not tied down to those pills nemore.... i wish u all the luck n the world.
congradulations on ur clean time. thats huge. : )
ok ...take a deep breath....i recently stopped taking opiates myself.....and i would just like to say that its awesome that you are clean....so now it would be wise to try and get in a program of some sort.....i went to a crisis center not far from my home....i was still taking them so i had to stay for detox.....but you are clean so your ahead of the game.....they will help you i promise.....and if you have no insurance you should still be able to get help......i know you fell terrible ...i do too...but guess what it will pass and your not so doped up nothing matters....i try to think about it like im waking up out of a deep sleep and my brain and body has to catch up.....well i really hope you talk to someone and get some help it will make this alot easier on you ....counseling,groups.mettings,doctors,medications lots of things to help...good luck.
P.S. Check out the health pages here also. You can find them in the top right of this page. There is a lot of great info in there about cravings and addiction, and also the amino acid protocal can help too. Keep posting and DON`T TAKE ONE:)
Does anyone have any knowledge of some place to go for help in my area. (Tulsa, OK) Or how to find one? I dont have insurance, so that could be a problem.
I can send you a link to an NA meeting, but not sure if that`s what your looking for. They are free and can help and I am sure you can find one close this evening.
http://www.okna.org/
I think that will work.
Hang in there alf, The meeting is a great idea. If you can't find NA close go to AA, they are free as gizzy stated, It will help. We are all cheering for you. Hang in there and keep posting.
Great job on getting through the peak withdrawals (the hard part). The thing I use to make sure I will never do one again is video tape yourself during day three and four of your withdrawals or watch videos of others doing it. I am not willing to repeat that hell for anyone including my cravings. It took me of having the worst withdrawal experience of my life to get me to swear off pills. Remember all the pleasure u get from the pills u have to give back two fold in misery and pain. Be strong and find something to help u enjoy life again.
I understand that it is hard I also went c/t, im at day 7 just left my children's bedroom & really spent sometime watching them sleep I kept saying in my head I can do this no more....I don't want to risk anything for my sober mind.as much as I want just 1 I know this can't ever happen...not even 1...Iam feeling like the major w/ds are over with the execption of the mental energy game. i spent today looking at my home, I have so much to do, 2 weeks ago i would pop a tab or 6 & get busy, but, I realized today that I overlooked so many details in this house...in my life....in my children...I want to be a sober mom, who never misses any of the little things...Keep on, I know I need some kind of aftercare, small town, n/a right on main street, want to keep it to myself however I know I need help, keep posting, keep reading ...I NEED ENERGY, my mind seems to have more real wits about it, NO more tabs... 7 days behind a new life ahead....need energy remedy ASAP