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No question just support to kick this once and for all
Well not a question as much as support..I have had a longtime addiction to vics and percs with clean time in between..3 years straight and best time of my life..I now have 2 young kids we didn't have then..I am so tired of this pill thing I am going to be done and def sticking with my support group from church celebrate recovery..There r so many things that go along w this but not to make this a 2 page post the long and short of it I started using again after another surgery over 2 years ago..I have had some short clean times in between but just because I ran out honestly what has kept me from getting clean is the fear of this stupid w/d I have had my fair share starting w 6 years ago when I got hooked from a dr prescribing me 10 my vics for 10 mo from a complicated surgery prior to that I had never done drugs or even knew of pain pills anyway it turned into a addiction..have been in legal trouble from it and stayed clean over 3 years... was clean in my pregnancies have a 2 and 3 year old which is really driving me to quit I love my babies more than life itself..every night I say see u in the am then question if I truly will because my usage is so high I take anywhere between 15 to 20 vics or oxy and have taken up to 30 before..def scary...I have no desire to be on these anymore none what so ever I want to begin my life again while my kids r young..we r such a close family..here is the kicker..my husband too has this addiction..never did before me but also had several surgeries including..back..neck..shoulder and mon will be 2 weeks since he had knee replaced which has been so hard w him being on pain meds..He is going to try and finish his recovery w out them since I use too and have been taking his obviously can't supply 2 habits..either way right now I want to make ME get clean if he needs them for a couple more weeks then so be it but he is out and has been we have been buying from a friend which takes extra money we DONT have and he takes them for major back issues which he has no more to sell anyway so we BOTH have a week and 2 days till HE can decide if he needs them a little longer..I am praying he don't I actually have been the hard one he has wanted to quit several times and I always cave he gives me everything going which is good and bad but we both have discussed this and KNOW what we need to do please don't judge our relationship because we r great parents aside from our addiction..we do everything for our kids but also know it is dangerous and we r hurting and cheating them by continuing use..bottom line tomorrow starts day 1 I am terrified as we have the kids and since he just had knee replaced I need to be able to take care of them..I have bought vitamins..protein shake..I have gabapentin which I heard helps I took it very short term when I had shingles I don't like it but whatever will help..I take clonazapam for anxiety which I have taken only at night for almost 2 years that will be my next demond:( we want to have 1 more baby but I have to get my body back..I honestly would have quit a year ago if not the fear of w/d which idk why cause I have went thru them..my usage is pretty high so I'm sure it will be hard..basically I just need lots of support to get thru this I too will try and help others..Please don't say addicts can't live together etc..we have had a very healthy relationship for over 11 years and married 10 we stayed clean over 3 years together till all the surgeries came and we both had several then just kept using cause didn't want to go thru w/d but we r both beyond done we talk about it everyday and I am on this page reading every chance I get..I appreciate in advance the support I am so excited to have our life back and my husband feels the same he is a amazing guy best dad ever and loves his family like I said he probably would not even be in this position if jot for me tho he would never say that..I admit I like the high but anymore it is just keeping me isolated I have lost every desire I have and sit at home and play w kids that's it..we do take them places but I don't like going out anywhere I don't talk to anyone really have lost my sex drive completely which I hope is pill related..I just need help getting thru this and keep it going I have never been one to crave pills once I'm clean and thinking but I will always keep this guard up as just will never go thru this again
Wow thank u for that..outs good to hear someone else went thru it with their husband.. either way he is out till next Monday cause he was letting me take them too I think it's great that we can both have over a week to get our minds clean we both want it bad enough I'm pretty sure he is gonna finish it put without them..He has a terrible time watching me suffer and if he has pills he splits them with me it would be very hard to lock in a safe etc..He is not just dependent but also a addict..A long time ago we both went to jail for forgering scripts..that was before kids we would never cross that boundary now w kids..anyway I just got up I did sleep last night but the rls started:( today is offially day 1..I don't feel awful but I def don't feel good I take clonapin have for 2 years so I am using it to help since I am already dependent on it then I will taper off that hopefully it's not that bad..I don't love them like I do oxy so I'm sure I can taper but I do have real big time anxiety:( that story is funny about finding the pill thanks for making me laugh!! I probably would have taken it but we won't be finding any pills so that's good.. thanks Chevy for the support I need a LOT of that.. I feel like this day is going to stand still for time it's Sunday nothing much going on same w tomorrow and idol time is not good I'm gonna try and clean kids pool out but that takes about a hr lol
Just a quick "yes u can, u can do this". U r on a site where many, many have gone before u and beat the demon. Keep reading n posting on this forum. We will b right beside u the entire way. U r not alone.
Hi there
I don't know about the cal/mag/zinc thing...I was taking a good multi-vitamin daily plus a calcium tablet daily in addition to the other things that help with withdrawals.
I mostly popped on here to say I understand. Both my husband and I were on pain meds for our various issues (he's had a lot of surgeries...heavy duty kinds like lung surgery, the most painful of all, heart, liver transplant, etc.) I've been dealing with arthritis, bone spurs and other issues.
We didn't share our pills for a long, long time. We had a rule against that. Well, after his last surgeries, radiation, chemo etc he was getting some heavy duty drugs and I was in constant pain because he's a big guy, he would trip, I would catch him, etc etc. He gave me a couple of his and I liked them WAY too much.
To make a long story short. I decided I needed to get off the pills, for my own health, but also because I'm his caretaker...he's never going to be 100% again and he deserves that. He is still taking his but is down to one pill a day. I threw out the last of my pills and his are locked up in his safe (so I don't get tempted).
It is possible to work together. I don't see why your husband has to be in pain especially when he's just had surgery but the thing is...he has to be able to lock up his drugs so you can't get at them AND he has to make a solemn promise to you that he won't offer anything to you. That can be very, very difficult as it is hard to see the one you love be in pain.
You both have to be determined in this fight. I get that he is at least dependent on the pain meds while you are an addict (just like us). I do believe that you will both have to get off of them in time. Does your hubby have a good friend he can trust to hold his drugs for him so that the temptation is out of the house? He's going to have to go through rehab for that knee....though I gotta say my father-in-law did his without any pain meds at all so it will depend on your hubby.
You can do this together...as long as you are on the same page...you have to be on the same page or it won't work.
Last night I was cleaning my home office and, as is normal for me, I find pills under my desk (I take maintenance drugs for High BP, etc) so it isn't uncommon for me to drop tiny ones that I never can find again (at least right away). OMG it was a tiny blue one...which meant it was a 30 mg oxy. My hubby said the way I yelled for him he thought there was some huge spider or something in my office. I'm pointing at the floor yelling "get it out of here..get it out of here" lol. He got it out for me (laughing the whole time too).
Like I said, you can do it together but you have to make that pact. Put the pact in writing and you have to mean it. Love is stronger than addiction I believe....especially when you love someone who loves you just as much.
Please continue to post...we are here to support and help you as much as we can. Oh yes, the immodium question. I had to take 4 twice daily for the first three days to control the bathroom problem. Then my doctor put me on Librax because I kept having problems (turns out I have IBS).
Good luck to both of you :-)
I don't know about the cal/mag/zinc thing...I was taking a good multi-vitamin daily plus a calcium tablet daily in addition to the other things that help with withdrawals.
I mostly popped on here to say I understand. Both my husband and I were on pain meds for our various issues (he's had a lot of surgeries...heavy duty kinds like lung surgery, the most painful of all, heart, liver transplant, etc.) I've been dealing with arthritis, bone spurs and other issues.
We didn't share our pills for a long, long time. We had a rule against that. Well, after his last surgeries, radiation, chemo etc he was getting some heavy duty drugs and I was in constant pain because he's a big guy, he would trip, I would catch him, etc etc. He gave me a couple of his and I liked them WAY too much.
To make a long story short. I decided I needed to get off the pills, for my own health, but also because I'm his caretaker...he's never going to be 100% again and he deserves that. He is still taking his but is down to one pill a day. I threw out the last of my pills and his are locked up in his safe (so I don't get tempted).
It is possible to work together. I don't see why your husband has to be in pain especially when he's just had surgery but the thing is...he has to be able to lock up his drugs so you can't get at them AND he has to make a solemn promise to you that he won't offer anything to you. That can be very, very difficult as it is hard to see the one you love be in pain.
You both have to be determined in this fight. I get that he is at least dependent on the pain meds while you are an addict (just like us). I do believe that you will both have to get off of them in time. Does your hubby have a good friend he can trust to hold his drugs for him so that the temptation is out of the house? He's going to have to go through rehab for that knee....though I gotta say my father-in-law did his without any pain meds at all so it will depend on your hubby.
You can do this together...as long as you are on the same page...you have to be on the same page or it won't work.
Last night I was cleaning my home office and, as is normal for me, I find pills under my desk (I take maintenance drugs for High BP, etc) so it isn't uncommon for me to drop tiny ones that I never can find again (at least right away). OMG it was a tiny blue one...which meant it was a 30 mg oxy. My hubby said the way I yelled for him he thought there was some huge spider or something in my office. I'm pointing at the floor yelling "get it out of here..get it out of here" lol. He got it out for me (laughing the whole time too).
Like I said, you can do it together but you have to make that pact. Put the pact in writing and you have to mean it. Love is stronger than addiction I believe....especially when you love someone who loves you just as much.
Please continue to post...we are here to support and help you as much as we can. Oh yes, the immodium question. I had to take 4 twice daily for the first three days to control the bathroom problem. Then my doctor put me on Librax because I kept having problems (turns out I have IBS).
Good luck to both of you :-)
I do have a quest..I hear a lot about cal/mag/zinc I have that..should I start taking it tonight? If so how many..Also heard it takes a while to work is that true? Should u start taking that a couple weeks before quitting or it won't be effective? And what symptoms does it help w most? Also the immodiom? Is it good to take in high doses or will it stop u up and cause w/d to last longer?
I am open to suggestions and help in anyway!! I just have heard 2 addicts can't be together and we love each other to death and like I said a healthy relationship just not on these pills..we can do it together and live clean cause we have but it's going to be rough as I said he has legidamit sp? Pain and can't take pills cause of me..yes I have had a few w/ds but doesn't make it any less scary.. I'm sure I will have questions I just get so much from reading these posts and seeing all the support I feel like I need that as I said I have it in my system from earlier but less than half what I would take..night is coming and I already feel the anxiety.. it has been a while since I went thru it like I said we were clean over 3 years and been using HIGH doses for over 2 years straight probably closer to 2.5 thanks for listening I have a bad habit of writing A LOT which people probably don't care to read it all I will try and keep them short and to the point but I know I am going to get more uncomfortable as these days go on and I don't remember how long before I start feeling good better people say day 3 and 4 r worse I really would rather think of them as a turning point but it is what it is either way I HAVE to get THROUGH it..we have cut all sources we have asked for some space from our friend that has to take them due to his back he is disabled he just sells some too I guess we have actually known for a long time he isn't really a friend cause he uses our addiction to get money
Sounds like you are on the right road and you are no stranger to the detox process. Make sure that you cut off all ties. You asked that we do not talk about two people trying to detox together so I won't bring that up. I will just say good luck because you never asked a question so I don't know quite what to say to you except good luck and let us know how you are doing.
Ibkleen... mainly just take it day by day and our celebrate recovery is every tues..so thinking next Tues for that I doubt we will feel like leaving for that this tues but know we need too participate we have spent sooo many hours talking about it just did again I told my husband I am scared already and having anxiety..I did take 7 today earlier but no more and made sure to have access to no more. .He said he will go thru the rest of healing process w out pain meds he is a lot stronger than me we talked about the rebound pain and I let him know how much more pain he is gonna feel while going thru this but he is healing quite well and fast I feel bad cause he is gonna have so much pain as he did just have a total knee but he assured me we can beat this monster we have done it before and will again this time forever we have lost so much in past little over 2 years including the real us and the kids I feel so guilty cause they have no clue and while we take care of them 100% I have major mood swings my husband contains himself he never raises his voice but I do:( and my kiddos have suffered they deserve their real mom and dad..
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