When I was 19 I was addicted to Meth, for some reason it was easy to quit after a year. Because of that, I thought I could handle Pills and Heroin. I was young and stupid, and very, very wrong! It really started with 5mg vik's. One every Friday or Saturday night. I worked in the bar industry and I was never a fan of coke. One turned into two, Then 10mg's, and those sweet, sweet Norco's! Some time down that wrong path I found myself balls deep in 80mg-Oxycontin's. (Not one but 2 a day) At $60 a pop, Heroin being $15 a bag seemed the smart thing to do. I was wrong. I found myself shooting 3 balloons of heroin a day. If not heroin then methadone. I lost love, friends and family and of course jobs. The sad part is that I new it. Some of my best friends didn't even know. Some how, I kept it hidden. I knew I had to stop, but couldn't find away. 8 years gone.
I eventually found suboxone, but guess what? I had suboxone withdraws! Yes, if you tried it then you know what I am talking about! So this is what I did. I broke down my dose in half. And then that half in half. I was down to about an eighth of a "Sub" and started taking small flakes. (for the record I bought them off the street and never went to a Doctor, although you should DEFINITELY talk to a Doctor because I am not a Doctor and am only telling you my story) I think that the small flakes of suboxone was mental because the small amounts should not have affected me, BUT IT DID! After about two weeks of a very small amount of suboxone, I finally stopped. It was still a little hard for about three days, but then it happened. I realized that I wasn't thinking about it as much, and I exercised and ate healthy. The fog cleared after about three days of anxiety and depression.
It has been about 8 months now and my life is GREAT!!! I thought I would never be able to quit and that I would be a Junkie for the rest of my life. And I was SO wrong! I thought that once I was off drugs that my life would be sad and depressing and I would always be wanting more black tar, I was again wrong. YOU CAN DO IT!!! PLEASE, TRUST ME!!! You also have to stay away from the people that still use! That's how I was pulled in before. Thinking that its been a while so once more wont hurt. WRONG!!!
It is a tough road, But think about it:You've made it this far, and its not just helping you, it's helping everyone that cares for and loves you. You want to quit. You wouldn't have looked this site up you didn't want to find an escape. I am Robert Kuhn, I hope my story helps you. I am very happy now. And the light at the end of your tunnel is not as far away as you think!