Thank you

[bb454]

I just want to thank everyone on this forum especially Danielle. I am on day 1 of a 6 to 8 a day hydro problem. I have tried numerous times to quit only to refill a script unable to stop my crazy life to detox..which by the way im.petrified of days 3 and 4. I feel like my life will never be normal after this has entered my brain and making everything ok. Thank u.everyone for sharing your stories and for the others who post to support others in their dire time of need. For some of us..this is all we have. Please pray for me ;(

[Stacy_Lynn]

are u taking any vitamins? if not i took a multi, magnesium & B12 & ate banana's as well. That seemed to help with the legs for me. Good luck, You got this!! Love & prayers. Stacy

[bb454]

Rough night..my god whats up with the leg and calve pain?

[Pat1956100]

Stay strong.  You are a day ahead of me but that means you will feel better sooner.  

[lulu747]

Hang in there, you are doing awesome!  Be careful about the negative self talk, it doesn't serve you.  This battle is one that needs to be waged from a place of love for yourself.  Treating yourself with love makes you STRONG!  And you deserve love and happiness...
Believe that.  Be proud that you've made this step towards reclaiming your life!  You can't change the past, or control the future, all you have is this moment right now.  Breathe deep and hang on to hope.  You are doing this!

Sending support...
Lu

[bb454]

Awww.thanks for.saying that bama ;)

[bama88]

You may have gotten lost.....but your not a looser. ;).

The hardest part is forgiving oneself.

Loosers don't want to stop. Winners do!!

[bb454]

Overopiates..thank you so much for that..i am.so scared I have lost myself.i dont even know who the hell I am anymore..trying to lay in bed..the legs are starting..how many times will I put myself through this?. Total F'ing insanity!

[overopiates]

We ALL feel like life will never be"normal"again when we quit but the thing is(at least for me&MANY OTHERS I've talked to)the pill popping and being n a fog has become our normal&we forgot what REAL NORMAL feels like.U WILL feel normal again I promise u that.Of course not2day or even this week but u will start getting these moments where u catch urself laughing or just doing a regular activity,maybe doing something u would've done before u were using that u enjoyed and forgot about and realize wow Im happy.U will realize hey I haven't thought about pills for a few hours,all day etc and u will start2feel that old u coming back a little at a time.You won't even know it but one day u will say wow I forgot how awesome I am,how much I like2laugh etc.I remember the day I was n a great mood&making jokes,being silly&my husband said"wow I missed u".I was confused he said"u r so funny so happy u r really smiling and laughing&I haven't seen u n so long please dont leave me again".I broke down n tears realizing wow this is me I forgot about her she is pretty great(lol).This will happen it just takes time.I was taking double what u were(not bragging VERY ASHAMED)hopefully the REAL YOU will come back even faster than I did.U will b the person I'm sure u forgot about and sooner than u think.Its hard2realize what normal is4u right now cause ur normal has been abusing pills but thats over now.The fantastic REAL u will b here b4uknow it.

[bb454]

Havent told my husband yet either..havnt gathered the courage to do so.. :(

[bb454]

Thank you Stacy.. I feel terrible right now and can only imagine what tomorrow is going to bring.o joy. My legs are killing me..like I ran in a marathon and all I did was.sit on my @ss today like a loser. My kids are fed clean and my house is clean..it was so hard to get though the day. I hate hate hate hate that I got myself into this mess and feel like I have been starting and stopping for a year. I have HAD it with this!!

[Stacy_Lynn]

Congrats for the big step you have made & having a day 1!!!! It is hard but well worth it, i can promise you!! Day 36 here of the same doc, only i was on around 80mg a day on average. So if i can do this, along with all the others here so can you! I'am glad ur in fear of day 3-4 cause if u have it all worked up to be awful then hopefully it won't be as bad as u thought it would be. If that makes sense, just as long as u continue to stay sober. Don't let the fear of quitting & the W/D make u not quit, make the anger u have for the pills for taking away ur clear head & entire body let u have peace from this drug!! Love & prayers! Stacy