The Abyss

[qpatty]

Today I woke up feeling like my entire brain and mind is nothing but a huge black hole of emptiness. For over a month I have felt like my emotions were running rampant. Today I feel nothing. I feel like my entire being is just a big void. I know that this is just another stage of recovery but this is a tough one. Luckily (or unluckily) I have a lot to do today so I can not, will not give in to this. It is such a strange feeling or lack there of. I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there till this passes. Please someone tell me that this will pass eventually. I feel like I am just a shell of a person with absolutely nothing inside, like a gutted pumpkin at Halloween.

[gnarly_1]

Hi  well what your feeling in normal...recovery is truly a rollercoaster in the beginning you just have to push threw it...we understand because where addicts  but ''normies'' dont...this is where N/A comes in  the meetings give you a place to share with others that will understand time to shore up your recovery with a meeting....with time these feelings will go away  but it is different for every one right now it is a chemical imbalance in yuor brain your serotonin is low your endorphins are next to nonexistent....try some cardo exorcise this helps jump start your brain  keep posting for support you can and WILL get thew this
.....................................Gnarly.....................................

[mlajl]

Yesterday was like that for me.. today is better.. stinks going back and forth.. hang in there!!!

[spider6]

Oh, it's a process honey....for many of us it's two steps forward one step back....but don't be discouraged....addict brain be pulling out all the stops.  It doesn't want you to do this without him.  Lol had to laugh at your description of emptiness..gutted pumpkin..........old boyfriend used to call me pumpkin head....this explains his real feelings towards me.  Hahaha just keep your eyes on the hydro pole that's two ahead of the car you're driving.....addict brain will never catch you.  Used to do this as a kid if I had anxiety on a field trip.  You're tearing it up girl! Grats!