christmas day roll call...

[jeffclowns]

hi this is jeff i have 53 wonderful days free of vicodin and 21 days off of marijuana....shout out your clean days everybody even if it is 1 ,no one judges here..and let's all have a wonderful Christmas day without the stinking pills controlling our lives...thank you and god bless everyone on the medhelp addiction forum and lets all have a great and safe and drug free holiday season.....HO HO HO............MERRY CHRISTMAS.......and to anyone who doesn't celebrate Christmas ....HAPPY HOLIDAYS....

[ctblues]

22 Days! ct

[freebird227]

Congraulations to all who are clean and love and support to those who are still struggling to get clean.......It took my brother a long while to get this staying clean deal, but today he has 20 months clean YEA!!!!
Im working with a girl who decided to use over the Holidays....I offered to meet her at a meeting, I went,,,,,she never showed.
I love being clean- for me it was a lifestyle change and lots of spiritual house cleaning.
Keep comming back and never give up......................Hugggs
Oh Yea......I have 25 and 1/2 years Clean

[WantToBeNormalAgain]

332 days to be exact!!! ...as the day I stopped abusing opiates. Thanks so much to Lesa!!!
xo Alison

[GeorgiaGirl1022]

39 days clean from opiates and 53 days clean from Xanax. Merry "late" Christmas and happy sober new year! Congrats on everyone's clean time!! God bless and thank you to all for your kind words and support!

[10356]

Congratulations on 11 months :) Whoo Hooo Prayers are being sent up.. lesa

[WantToBeNormalAgain]

You're right. I guess it just takes someone else pointing it out and in writing to recognize it. I guess I just always looked at clean time as time that you haven't touched any mind altering substances, even if they're being taken as directed. So I'll change my tracker, and my 'new' clean time is 11 months.. :) Thanks so much for the re-direct!!! And I would love to have any prayers for those of you that do pray that my pain gets a little less substantial tonight. It seems to be in full force: back, leg and shoulder..all at once. My heating pad and I have a hot date tonight, pun intended! Things are looking ok right now. Better than they were earlier, thanks so much Lesa!! Talk soon :)
Alison

[dominosarah]

That a girl narla!!

[10356]

Whoo Hoo Narla Welcome back :)

[narla]

OK 485 days clean alcohol and codeine,

Taking no more than 60mg of codeine a day,making sure I stay well within what's prescribed.

[10356]

I'm Proud of you for being so Honest with your Dr's and not abusing them. Can you say why you are not counting your clean time from addiction ? is it because you are not suffering ?  none of us deserve nor do we have to suffer. It sounds to me like you have done the responsible things to insure yourself from active addiction and old patterns. Addiction is so personal as we all start down it for reasons but if we have dealt with the reasons and are secure we are being true. You can do no more ya know..

[10356]

Yes it was hard I have journals about it.. Physical wd does not really scare me as I have been thru it so many times. not fun to say the least.. I was worried about my emotional health for sure.. I started Heroin at 16 over emotional pain.. it took decades until I had gone to a Psychiatrist to work thru this. I think seeing him put me in a much better place but the fear inside was very real. my family was hurting over my addictions I was hurting Heck my dogs were even unhappy.. this did not come about this time. I was Healthier in mind.. I had my moments for sure as one specific journal details but I fought thru with support from here my friends here my family and feel back on top. Nobody wants to face this but we must continue on in our lives and I believe we are the obstetrical to how difficult we make it.. You will get thru this period in your life and come out on Top. I sure hope your surgery goes smoothly. and I Hope and Pray with time your pain levels drop off from your leg and ankle shatter..

[WantToBeNormalAgain]

Hi Lesa,
Wow, our stories are similar health-wise..! I have had 6 surgeries on my ankle/leg after shattering both bones, but my addiction didn't creep up until about 4 years after that. I got ahold of a vicodin for the first time, which I had thought I was allergic to, and who knows why, but tried a half of an ES one...I've been through quite a bit since that dumb decision. But again, I've had to take narcotics when there really wasn't another choice.  I mean there's always a choice, but with the horribly high level of pain I was/am in, it's a constant struggle. I can proudly say that all my docs know of my addiction and I haven't abused narcotics in nearly a year..but my internal struggle is a big one lately, and I'm trying to head all advice here and follow my own as well but I'm just really struggling. I'm trying everything I can as an alternate to surgery, and to no avail. Can I ask you: was it terribly hard to 'have' to go back on them, as it looks like I will, and then go back off? Not the physical wds, but the emotional aspect of it? Thanks so much for sharing your story with me and well wishes :) Alison

[10356]

I'm sorry you are dealing with so much WantToBeNormalAgain
This is my take on it.. I have 3 plates and 17 screws in my right foot This is the original reason I started taking the Norcos when it was crushed.. I abused them. I was a drug addict long before this incident. I also have a very complicated Health history.. after I quit the first time my Norco and soma I had gone back to using the norco with my foot as the excuse.. That I could not take the pain That was a relapse.. Because I can take the pain.. I'm aware of how long I'm on it To put it up when it swells just to manage it with awareness of my limitations I also use Motrin 800 twice a day. when my shoulder replacement was due I only used 1 week prior to the surgery as I was suffering. I could not mange this.. I used for 2 or 3 weeks after the surgery Then used ice and Motrin 800. I did all the responsible things. like I said I turned over the management of them to my husband. I told my Dr. and MY Surgeon I was a drug addict. I was open and Honest with everyone involved and held a clean conscious that I had did everything I could to insure that I did bot fallback into active addiction. I had a plan set with my Dr.s for a quit time For a tight schedule. and I was true to myself. This is the best I can explain why I keep my clean time. I was true to myself.. I wish you well with your surgery.. and the fight inside you.. lesa

[WantToBeNormalAgain]

Day 11 for me off hydrocodone. Have struggled with addiction and pain on and off for quite a few years now. I was taking norco 7.5s up until 11 days ago, but it looks like I may have to have shoulder surgery now. As of the last few months when I was back on the norco for pain and taking them as directed, I still had a horrible guilt about it, and like Narla put it, felt I was back to zero days sober...anyone else feel this way?? I'm really putting myself through a lot of pain by not taking the norcos any more (flushed them as I got scared I'd be back at square one). Kind of stuck right now...!! It does feel like a relapse if I go back on them, even as directed and such!! If I had not had gall bladder removal and now the RA and shoulder problems, I'd be almost a year completely opiate free! :(

[10356]

Congratu;tions all for your clean time !! Whoo Hooo :)) No alchol for more then a few months I did not bother with a quit date as I was so angry that I had relapsed but that is in the past I will just be happy with Alchol Free for now on :)
2 years 23 days opiate Free !! lesa

Narla I had a shoulder replacement a year into my recovery I also handed them over to my husband and only used till I could manage it on my own I like you first thought of it as a relapse but it was not I did not abuse..  also I did not keep taking them for emotional reasons.. Because we are addicts does not equal suffering.. You should be Proud to claim your clean time You have earned it.. warm hugs

[dominosarah]

What do you mean 0 days off codeine?  You are taking these for a medical reason.  Why would you change your tracker?

[FassFeat]

Congrats to all on clean time.
118 days clean from Hydrocodone.
Congrats to Toby for making it through a potentially bad situation.

[laurel453]

Happy merry christmas to all of you :)

great feeling that of coming negative the drug test, eh, Jeff  :) congrats

CONGRATS TO ALL OF US , TODAY WE ARE CLEAN :)

825 days here ( hydrocodone)

[lady67]

3 years (approximately 1095 days) free from ambien and lunesta,
314 days clean of hydrocodone.

My life is going so great that it is scary.

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats to everyone weather it be 1 day or 10yrs we all do it....''just for today''
so its 433 days from methadone and the pills 5yr8mo from alcohol weed and anything else recreational  

[dede2121]

28 days today. christmas was good. and went to an aa meeting then i went to see a movie. True Grit. it was really good.

[guv338]

700 days today from 600 mg/day oxycontin addiction. I never would have thought this was possible, but I am living proof that it can be done.  Also 590 days off of cigarettes.  Thanks and Merry Christmas MH. guv

[quitinoxys]

Jeff congrats on 53 days clean its a festivis miracle LOL Merry Christmas to you and everyone it has been 181 days for me.

[mikchez]

545 days one day at a time My Christmas is just another day,but in a marathon meeting of NA