Why are the evenings and nights so bad???!!! UGH

[Sweetness91]

Why do I feel ok sometimes thru the day, but EVERY evening is hellish?? OMG I could just scream right now :( This has been the longest 2 1/2 weeks ever, and still seems like its never gonna end. I can honestly see why ppl relapse...but I refuse to do that so........But that doesn't mean I can't moan n groan a little right? I even got out of the house for a few hours today...it wasn't the most pleasant thing, but I did it! Not working, not having any friends I socialize with anymore, and not being close to my siblings seriously limits me when it comes to just "going running around" like my hubby does. If not for my hubby's friends, I would probably NEVER socialize or get to talk to another adult. Lol. Oh....and I ordered out last night because I was too achy to even think about cooking...we ordered from this War Veterans post down the street that has fabulous food. Anyway, my 13yr old son went with me to order it and while we waited, we played a couple games of pool. Evidently, men do not think women can play pool? Or 13 yr olds? (He got it honest...hehehe wink wink) We had a blast and got tons of compliments on our abilities. It took my mind off the pain and it was awesome. I wish I could find more things like that to occupy my time. I'm actually looking forward to getting back in the Billiards league once this is all over....maybe. I won a trip to Vegas in 99'....hurt my back in '01 and haven't played with a team since. I wanna do THAT again!!

[Sweetness91]

All my days have been especially long since quitting...when you don't sleep your days kinda all turn into one enormously long day! And I find myself only wanting something when the pain is bad. When it isn't, I'm able to keep occupied doing one thing or another around the house or outside with my German Shepherd. The poor little Shih-Tzu seems to only get my attention when I feel bad. I think he senses it and wants to stay in my lap and comfort me. He's got a permanent spot next to me in my recliner now. Lol. I know once I get thru this, I can get back into the working world...but not yet. I won't subject an employer to my problems as they are now so I guess that's gonna have to wait unfortunately. Like someone else said, methadone doesn't just "GO" out of your system...it seeps like sludge! And I believe every word of that because I'm feeling it! Lol. God bless everyone <3

[conhall]

Congrats on your clean time . I also felt the same way that nights were the hardest at about the same time where you are at 2 1/2 weeks I had to start new habits I joined a gym and started doing a spinning class Get those endorphins Going :))) It $ucked at first I aint gonna lie But once I got into it I actually started to look forward to it.
And when I didnt do the gym I would rent movies stay busy go for a walk. Write in a journal . I still have times where I find myself having a bit of anxiety at night but Its so much easier now to deal with because I just know It will pass and i will be okay.
Sounds like you and your son had fun enjoy those moments. I also started spending more time with my kids because when I was using I started being a recluse in my room and just was in bed usually. Now I enjoy spending time so much with my kiddos and they love it they have their Mom back. Life will get better and you will learn to adjust to those Nights and you will start to look forward to everything in life Because you are clean and everyday clean is so much better than anyday we used ;-)
Stay positive and keep posting Be proud of Yourself :)

[BlondeChick10]

I resonate with your post .. I usually took my last pill at 230.  Evening was my time to come down watch TV etc. I find my evenings to be loooooong too , last weekend was my first weekend after my taper ended on Friday and the boredom killed ME too.

[YesLife4Me]

Like you, evenings were my down time, so I didn't use after 5 either or I wouldn't sleep well or much.   As much enegy and feel good I got oof them, they would jack up my mind, so I couldn't rest.  Evening was my coming down time.   Now sometimes the evenings are long because im tired from pushing myself all day and I can't wait for bedtime to start a new day and put this behind me.   Weekends are the hard time for me.   Keeping busy with a routine through the week keeps my mind busy.   As time goes by renewed interests happen along with energy so the weekends go by a little faster now.    I still have ups and downs and a hard time getting going on weekends or days off while trying to build new routines.  Funny thing is that I didn't do much different than now on weekends but the pills killed the boredom.   Keep looking for new ways to entertain your mind and in time you will find yourself back to your new old self.   Great job on the clean time!   Isn't it great to have memories with your family without being high?  :)

[Sweetness91]

The morning and afternoons were my "using time"...evenings were my downtime I guess you could say. I didn't normally take anything after 5-6 because I would be up all nite and sleep all morning and into the afternoon sometimes even....and with kids, you just can't do that. When I read others stories of having to cut ties with user friends, I do feel lucky because I don't even have friends that do what I did, so going to them for something to use is out of the question. I'm glad my sources are limited! Lol. And by limited, I mean none because I was always sooo ashamed of even being on methadone that I didn't tell anyone! Only my husband and father knew. I know I don't have it as hard as alot of y'all do, but the w/d's are still there. :(

And congrats on your clean time!! Sounds like you got your stuff together and that's awesome. Keep on truckin'!!!

[Sweetness91]

The morning and afternoons were my "using time"...evenings were my downtime I guess you could say. I didn't normally take anything after 5-6 because I would be up all nite and sleep all morning and into the afternoon sometimes even....and with kids, you just can't do that. When I read others stories of having to cut ties with user friends, I do feel lucky because I don't even have friends that do what I did, so going to them for something to use is out of the question. I'm glad my sources are limited! Lol. And by limited, I mean none because I was always sooo ashamed of even being on methadone that I didn't tell anyone! Only my husband and father knew. I know I don't have it as hard as alot of y'all do, but the w/d's are still there. :(

And congrats on your clean time!! Sounds like you got your stuff together and that's awesome. Keep on truckin'!!!

[Sweetness91]

Thank you...I really never even dreamed I could say I have 18 days free of methadone! I had accepted "you'll be on it the rest of your life" and never even questioned it really. It's been a long time since I've had a clear mind and been able to get out of bed before 7 a.m. w/o and alarm to wake me up! If anyone knows how many times a day I should drink the whey protein shakes, please let me know? I got the one with the highest amt of protein in it hoping that would be better and replenish my body quicker but I just need to know how much! ;)

[SunnysideUP27]

Hang in there. It gets better.  Congrats on your clean time.  It takes quite a while for our brains to heal.  Exercise is huge. The runners high can get rid of anxiety like no other