Wow

[bb454]

Im a little over a week clean from a 6 to 8 hydro a day habit for two years..detox was bad but not too too bad...today I am so depressed!! I have been on Prozac for a week or so. I realize it takes a while to get into your system. Im just so sad today...i have too many people depending on me to feel this bad..ugh lord help me!

[bb454]

Thank you.Dix...tears again :) I miss him so much I cant believe its almost been a year..i dont know what I would do without this site right now..i wish we could all go and have coffee together!

[Dixiechick72]

I'm sorry for ur loss of ur dad. He sounds amazing. But I'm sure he's looking down on u. Smiling so proud of the steps u have taken to get here.  Use that as a goal!!! I know I am thinking of how to become a councilor for this crap.  If I can help or change one persons mind to be clean. I've had great support here and I just want to give back what I have gained here. Hang in there ok. He's smiling down on u right now and that truly warms my heart!!! Big hugs

[bb454]

Tears...thank you so much..your posts have gotten me off the couch..i mean it. :)

[selfinduced]

Yes Ma'am......YOU CAN!!!!!! and guess what, then you too will be helping pull others off their knees. I believe in you.

[bb454]

Thanks selfinduced..my Dad was a fricken saint..you should have read his online obituary..person after person saying how my Dad saved their life by sponsoring them..my god not having him here for this I feel like im mourning double :( I have his dedicated blood pumping through my veins..i can do this..right?!

[selfinduced]

I am so sorry for your loss, but how committed your dad was in his recovery to deny pain meds. I guess that affirms what the folks with lots of clean time say, They would rather endure the pain than take the meds that robbed their peace and soul. BB, you were on my exact dose and if not for this forum and one guy ink particular, I'd still be using. I was stubborn, private, ashamed and oh so sic. If I could get out of this mess, you can too. Please commit to 30 days. You won't believe how wonderful you feel. All your senses will come back in ways you forgot you ever had. I'm routing for you and your dad has a front row seat! xx