What do I do now?

[kalie1979]

Not sure what to do, I'am so let down. All I have been doing this morning is crying! I got a call back from the rehab center in Florida, they said my insurance would only cover three days, so there is no point going there, because its ten hours away from here. So yesterday I called Wilmington NC, talked with them and they had a outstanding program. But I got the call this morning and my insurance will cover 2 weeks, which is OK, but I still have to pay 1,500 plus 20% of the overall cost for two weeks. And I know I need at least a month in a place. What do I do now?

[Fisforfriends]

That sounds like a good plan. sub is a controversal topic if it is addictive or not. i would say it is. but if u r in an outpatient than they should b able to help you with the wd with sub but also tell them you would like to be off of that b4 you are done with the program. Also a program is not enough after care is very important. Check into NA in your area is it very benificial to most. Hope that helps... Be Strong!!!

[kalie1979]

Okay so this is where I stand now. I can't get in any rehab centers, because my insurance(which is state insurance) s u c k s...... So i just got off the phone with a lady from a out patient program. She said that they would put me on suboxone,, I think. And i would have to go there 3 to 4 times a week. So I thought maybe I should go to my mother-in-laws apartment and she would come down here to help take care of my daughter. That way I would be close to the place I have to be so much during the week and not have to deal with the stress around here, so i can fix me. Is that a good plan or not...really need advice  Also she said that sub, is not addictive, it seems that other people say it is, is she wrong?

[kalie1979]

See, I know i will succeed if I did go, but i thought i needed at least a month somewhere. I am 30 yrs old and I still don't know who I am. I have tried therapist and that did not work. I live in north carolina, if anyone knows anything about this area. Should I look for a place that can take me for a month, or spend the money for two weeks? I just don;t think two weeks is enough...

[fogmussher]

You will be surprised how fast you get better. They will get you the tools. Most of us think we can do it alone and this drags on for months sometimes years. Once you get in there you will wonder why you didn't get in there sooner. Really. I owe my life to them. I wasted so much of my life being stubborn thinking one thing or another up as reasons I couldn't go. After a few days i felt like I just hatched out of an egg or something.

[kalie1979]

Okay this is my problem, we have no money put back. We have been building our home for a year now and every paycheck after bills goes to our house to buy supplies. We did not get a loan because our goal is not to have a morgage. My work is seasonal so I do not go back to work until later in march. I have tried to beat this before, but I failed. I got so sick that my husband took me to the ER twice. I would pay the 1,500 in a minute if it were at least 3 weeks. See I had a horrific childhood it still to this day haunts me. So I knew if I got into a place I would come out a New woman. They would detox me, and gives me tools to help me deal with my family and my issues. I just don't think I can do it here. I do not want my daughter seeing me that way again.

[Fisforfriends]

My suggestion would be to stop b4 u go to the rehab. this will make you feel a little better about only having 2 weeks and I agree with the above poster if you think that 2 weeks is not long enough (which it isn't for most of us) NA and AA meetings are available in most areas and completely confidencial. Also outpatient seems to be a little more affordable and can be concidered as a second step as well as a half way house.
hope that helps

[2much2soon]

I'm still struggling myself but why do you think you need a month?What about doing the 2 weeks in house(when the worst of the detox is over ect) then come home and find an aftercare program where you live? 1500? I know I've paid way more than that on pills.You can do this!! Don't let this stop you. Like I said my detox starts in a few days so I'm no expert but just a few suggestions..