addiction

[maddie93]

i need advice on something, well someone to talk to so i dont sound crazy,
i think im jus changing addictions and its not the best thing...
it started wit overdosing on naproxen and pain kills, eating disorders hardly eating but puking, then like cutting then i couldn't cut so sex now tht i have a great guy its vicodin and cigs and ik i shouldn't but i crave them and as long as there at hand i do them, but im scared tht maybe if i keep this up somethings gonna trigger back to cutting and i forget to eat some days for days at a time. im not depressed but its only a matter of time i relaps on cutting and i dont wanna go back to tht do u think its possible to do wat im doin until i lose enough weight then stop? wit out going back to cutting? plez give me some advice

[maddie93]

ik its hard to believe im 16 and doin all this but i cnt talk to my mom wit out her putting me in the mental hospital again and like she's the cause of alot of this pain its hard to explain without her getting in alot of trouble but lets jus say she wasn't the best mom in the world and now she already thinks im something horrible for cutting and overdosing and she wouldn't think twice bout putting me back in the hospital i did go to a councilor but she stopped it and so i only have friends but now i dont even have many left because of the stuff tht happened but i guess the friends i have left r my only true friends... i talk bout some of the stuff wit my boyfriend but he doesn't understand stand the self-harm and i think it only makes him upset wen i try to explain tht its not as easy to stop as u would think and the drugs wel he gets it but he's an addict to so like it doesn't help to bring it up because i don't want him to relaps to.

im kinda stuck in this horrible life stile i don't no how to get out of it?? i don't rely no who to trust anymore because of all the times my friends have turned on me...
thank you for all the reply's from everyone if u could bear wit me i jus don't no wat to do anymore and it feels like im slipping again and i cnt go back to cutting and depression because i don't wanna lose matt over this and he'll say wel jus quit and he wont c it as a disease, bipolar depression  

[vicki595]

Hey Kiddo~   Drug abuse,sex,cutting,eating disorder and you're 16!   This is not good Sweetie and you know it.  

Please talk with your parents. You need someone to throw you a rope and pull you out of this!  

Do it today! Okay?

[sky_is_the_limit]

We are all beautiful people. It dosen't matter what you look like on the outside maddie its who you are on the inside that will change you. You are a beautiful person you just have to realize that. Find a good counselor to talk to. We are here to support you. Drugs just mask our true feelings. Peace & Love
                                                          Sky_is_the_limit

[IBKleen]

Hi,

I think you would greatly benefit from counseling. It seems that you never got to the root issues that cause you to harm yourself (eating disorder, cutting, drugs). Please get the help you need and get off of the merry-go-round before it is too late. You are way too young for all of this and now is a good time to deal with it.

Be good to yourself.