am scared, suboxone detox

[Casper1984]

Ive been on suboxone for 2 years, 24mg's a day, 75 8mg's pills a month. I always ran out on day 18, due to my abusen them. For goin on 6-12 months, ive been taken 30-40 mg's a day. My insurance refills on day 20, so i would buy 2 8mg's with cash to hold me over. I have stopped cold turkey, and im not goin back to the doctor, my addictive mind set will just get the 75 pills again. I have not tapered down at all. My last dose was 3 days ago, 32 mg's. The withdrawal is something worse than heroin, pain pills, or any drug. I cant even walk ten feet with out blacking out, my skin is on fire, my bones burn, what do i do, and how much longer will this last? Am i in danger?

[Casper1984]

some of yall keep saying to go to the er, i did, they gave me gabapentin. now, i will be seeing a new doctor this week to get what ever it is to help get me through. whether it be a opiate, low dose, and benzos, i will have my grandmother go with me, that way she can dispense the meds. NO TO THE SUBS, I WOULD RATHER GO THROUGH A FULL BLOWN MORPHINE W/D, THEN A SUB WITHDRAWAL. ive w/d from morphine before, it was a crappy flu for 7 days, nothing like this. its my ex-wife demanding i take my kloe, she doesnt believe in withdrawals, she's always made fun of me for my complaining of pain in the past. saying im faken.

[jamajessie]

I'm sorry Casper but you wont be in any much better shape by Sunday. Sub wd's can last twice as long ,sometimes more than full opiate withdrawals. Plus, the fact that you jumped off such a high dose without tapering is going to make your wd's 10 times as bad. If you can you really need to go to your sub doc and discuss a taper.

[gsebia]

Dude, a blood pressure of 168/106 is lethal...I would take the advise of everyone that stated on this board - get to an ER...They will put you in a detox - it may take a few days but hell,. you have a kid that is depending on you for many years to come..I am not sure about the sub doasge you dropped cold turkey, but - I am weining of vicodins and it is rough...

[ang_811]

I agree with mark.. If u r n no shape to be taking care of a child by sun plz don't force urself. U have come a long way and have done so good.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Travis I wish I could just make all this stop for you but I cant.....I have kept you in my prayers and I do know that God helps but it will be in his time....he has kept you alive thew all of this...you have been on the edge of insanity and he has kept you from going over...some times we just need to look at what God has already done for us and then trust his word that he will complete what he started  I hope by sunday your better but you need to have a plan if your not...there is a child's welfare where talking about here that is priority one can she just stay where she is for the time being???  

[Casper1984]

MY PRECIOUS KLOE, WHOM IVE SEEN ONLY ONCE IN 13 DAYS. ITS KILLING ME, NORMALLY, SINCE THE SEPERATION AND ME FILING FOR DIVORCE, I HAVE HAD HER 75% OF THE TIME, SHE AND I SHARE A UNIQUE SPECIAL BOND THAT IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED, WITHOUT HER, I FEEL ALONE. YET, I HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM HER, SINCE IF I EVEN SPEAK TO HER ON THE PHONE, SHE WILL BEG TO COME STAY WITH ME. IM STILL IN NO CONDITION TO LOOK AFTER HER, MY BODY IS STILL FEELING HORRIBLE, MY MANIC EPISODE HAS LESSENED INTO HYPOMANIA, WHICH I CAN HANDLE, BUT THE RLS AND BURNING SKIN, ACHES ALL OVER, NO APPETITE, FATIGUE, CHILLS, AND SO ON, ARE STILL IN CONTROL OF ME. IVE ALSO LOST MY NEW "GIRL FRIEND/BABYSITTER" DUE TO MY INABILITY TO DO ANYTHING WITH HER, AND FOR BUYING XANAX & POT OFF THE STREET. IVE GOT UNTILL SUNDAY TO RECOVER, THATS WHEN I GET KLOE BACK. SO PLEASE, IM BEGGING ALL OF YOU, FROM THE PURE INNOCENSE OF MY HEART, PRAY I RECOVER BY SUNDAY. THAT''LL BE DAY 17. PLEASE DONT LET THIS FALL ON DEAF EARS. THANK YOU ALL, I SINCERELY OWE ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE ENCOURAGED ME FROM DAY 1, I OWE YOU ALL A GREAT DEAL OF LOVE AND GRATITUDE.----TRAVIS(CASPER)