beating the c/t blues

[onalongride]

i have been c/t for 4 days . the last time i did anything was 9/23 7:45 am. dont feel bad but my mate keeps wanting me to go get her some [roxcets]. i have been taking  v-c, a couple 1 a day,veggie-vites 3 a day,and calcium,magnesium,zinc. i work on the road all week [drive truck]. cant do these things no more they started to run my life.wednesday was terrible,thurs,little better,fri ok,today so-so.what can i do to feel better,sleep ,better,more energy.my mate is a good gal but she fights for me to get her roxys.i am at wits end she says she wants to quit but friday she could not get through.thses things cost lots of $ i will not let these things control me ANYMORE i am done . ANY SUGGESTIONS ! HELP ME                                                                                                                                                                                                                         I AM ONALONGRIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[onalongride]

thank for the support i really love my mate! we have a 10 year old together. i cannot leave cause i need to be in my daughters life . i will make it i just need more feed back from anybody. i am strong willed and i will not let these demons get me i will survive. i broke down today and got her more roxys. no one will give them to her because of her attitude.but it makes life easy for me and my daughter.i will not take them ever again.they are demons. i got hooked on them when i was ingured i was parralized and had a 8 hour surgery on my back off work 4 13 months,my doctor told me to suck it up and go c/t i have never seen him again.any one with input i will listen to you.

[christos24]

you may need to take a break from her, you made best decision of your life, and without a doubt saved your life by getting off of the roxicets. those are extremely addicting,. i was addicted to oxycontin and heroin, i took roxy's when i couldnt find any of the other two, but would pretty much take anything to take any of the incredibly bad withdrawals away. the oxycodone actaully takes longer tahn heroin to detox off of and for your brain to get beack their normal leasure receptors...she needs to get clean and go to treatment, maybe start up on suboxone i was over 8 months clean on that, or she may need to go to a methadone clinic if her adiction is bad enough. with suboxone the dosage you can only go so high before it actually has the opposite effects of opiates. you are incredibly strong for staying clean for even this long, you have a day to day fight but youa re already through the worse of it. you should be surrounded by ppl who support you and your victory and help you keep a good mind set, not someone asking you to get the drugs you had to come off of in the first place, that is asking for an instant relapse and it will come back three times as bad beleive me ive done it. i dont even know you but iam completely in aww and greatful for hearing taht you were able to go cold turkey and stay clean, just stick with it. if you find that in a week or two its too hard to stay away from then i would look at seeing a suboxone doctor or a methadone clinic they both work wonders and save your life, but you seem extremely motivated and really ready to be sober for good. if you partner really loved you she wouldnt ask you to go get her you DOC  even do drugs aroudn you...it only causes more severe cravings, my ex was also a junky with me and after three years of some of the greatest memories of my life i had to leave her to fix myself, and she didnt want to help her self, it was extremely had to leave her but i had to to save my life. i have faith that you will make the right decision and will continue to stay strong support her if she wants help but if all she is doing is asking for drugs separate yourself until shes better or truly wants to be clean i also cant stress enough how much individual counseling, group meetings, and NA will help you stay clean..-good luck to you-christos