day 1 again agh

[sfreeze20]

Hi not really a question I've been lurking on this site for months trying different methods to stop using hydros. I've been using about nine years now and everytme I've quit something happens to where I get prescribed them again and of course I think I can just take my prescription and walk away obviously an addict can't do that but likes to believe they can. Today I've had one and a half vicaprofen which some reason don't get me high like hydros so I have three 7.5 of them trying to use them when it's really bad probably another bad idea . I go back to work Sunday night I'm scared of wd at work **** I'm just plain scared of wd I've done it so many times now . Can a pill addict stay clean ...
Thanks for reading.

[Sonrissa]

Hi there, I'm sorry you are feeling bad. Like Vicki said above, taking one here and there is only prolonging this process. You've got to cut off ALL your sources. You need to tell your connection, talk to your doctor, etc.  5 pills, at 1/2 per day will not help. This cycle will continue, and it will get worse until you get serious and take the necessary steps to quit.  The physical withdrawals last a few days, and then you will slowly feel better.  We have had members who work during this process because they had to. The mental withdrawals can last much longer, and that is where aftercare kicks in. Don't think about NA meetings, go to one. You will get the support you need. I hope you will consider all of this. I wish you the best, and we will help support you through this. Take care.

[sfreeze20]

I went thru the vicoprofen yesterday so they are gone I'm not going to lie one my old connects text me this morning n I said I need 5 pills to get me thru to take half a day I know this is totally wrong but I can't move I see straight I want to cry constantly.  I can't call my pain management doctor at this point, I haven't picked up the hydro's cause  my husband is home from work does anyone think I could call a urgent care and get some help I feel like **** setting up a secret deal n scared I keep telling myself I can take half to ease this so I can work tomorrow I know its a lie to myself and everyone else but I can't take it n I can't miss work don't know where to turn yes I have though bout NA and things like it but can't get out of bed to go I'm at such a bad place right now I know a lot of people make it thru n it gives me hope but right now I just hurt.

[vicki595]

Don't take any more vicoprofen and throw out what you have in the house. It's absolutely necessary. To continue to take one here and there will prolong this state.

Have you participated in any recovery care/Aftercare programs or meetings?We seriously recommend it. We need all the help, support, and tools we can find.

Stay in touch here. Stay hydrated and take some ibuprofen for those aches.

[sfreeze20]

I'm definitely serious I have surgery coming up and have told them I can't have anything , I also cancelled all future appointments at my pain clinic . I'm sweating balls right now . The aches are awful soaking in Epsom salt and eating bits of bannas, multi vitamins taking xannax to try to sleep through it but up every couple of hours . My husband had never been addicted to anything and he is driving me a little nuts but I'm sure he feels the same I'm so scared of relapse I feel like there's only so many chances I have to quit and this probably my 50th at minimum that's why I finally stopped lurking here and decided to reach out. Thank you to all that have responded I really appreciate you taking time out for me.

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Oh yeah, the urgent care doc prescribed me 8 pain pills at my request...I was hurting badly...but I wound up having my husband lock them up....then when I was feeling a little better I ruined them so no one is able to take them now :-)

Gotta be dead serious about what you want hun....then you will be able to get clean!

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

I made sure the first thing I did when I decided to CT was to tell all my doctors what I was doing and I asked them not to prescribe anything addictive to me at all unless they felt it absolutely necessary.  When I went through my painful devinticulitis (I have no clue how to spell that) my hubby tested my doctor....called him...told him what was going on...asked for pain meds and was told NO.  Luckily we've been going to this doc for 8 years so when my hubby laughed and told him he was "just checking" the doc laughed and said "do you honestly think I'm going to do something when she said not to?  I want to live another day and when she means business she means it!"

Get rid of all the temptation in your life first and foremost.  Cut off all contact, throw away all drugs, get rid of tempting phone numbers and don't hang with anyone who uses.

Once you do that then it will seem like you are serious about all of this!

In my prayers and thoughts!